My Secret Garden

2009-09-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

and i thought last year was bad enough.

i miss you all...

2009-08-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

isn't it unfair when others practise so much, and someone can just learn everything in a few mins, yet do it so much nicely? so zai. its been more than a year and i'm nowhere near there. sigh

and i'm such a fangirl hehe. ooo he remembers!! lalala~ happy day =)

its been more than a year and i'm nowhere near there. sigh

2009-08-19T02:30:00.001+08:00

happiest day since school started so far. =D

okays it started out pretty sucky. had a realllly bad stomachache during 3211 (or is it 3220? i always forget my mod codes) lecture today. it was nearing the end of the lecture and i thought it will end anytime soon coz he's done with the slides so i tolerated. but it droned on and on and by the time its over i'm as white as a sheet. being really sick these few days. fever, food poisoning, flu, cough, the works. and i thought i had recovered but apparently not.

anyway, the good thing which came out from my recent bout of sickness is that i have no appetite and lost alittle weight. happy ok. coz my friend told me that. with DR coming up soon, its good to look good besides the other hot blastards haha.

okays so up till now the whole post deviates from the opening statement. i'm just very happy being a little fangirl at the moment, so pardon me. this post dun make sense. none of my recent blog posts does anyway

i'm in Big Bang Heaven ~lalala~ floats away

2009-08-14T22:30:00.003+08:00

hi, its been awhile.

many things have happened after my last update. rag dance, hall bash, meet-ups, school starting, mostly happy things. i sort of lose interest in blogging, which explains the long absence. but i always return to blog when i have no one to talk to, when i'm feeling down. so yea. here i am again.

my plans have been screwed up twice. i thought i had it all sorted out, so it came as quite a shock that night. its okay. i got it all sorted out, and prepared myself for the new sem. and then again, another shock today. finally, i'm getting tired of all this. and numbed too.

i know some friends have been secretly thinking that i'm a coward. that i'm wasting time and money. i dun blame them for thinking that way. i felt the same way about myself too. can there ever be someone more immatured and cowardly than me? i just can't make myself face reality. condemning it before i ever started. i think i'm ridiculous.

0.0001% of a chance i guess.

no one to talk to =(

2009-08-06T01:39:00.001+08:00

sometimes, when you accept things, letting go is easier than it seems.

i couldn't have asked for better friends =)

2009-08-03T15:42:00.003+08:00

bored =(

there's a lack of updates recently coz i have not been doing anything special. time has been spent on a small number of outings, and mostly in hall for rag dance now. saturday's the show, and we are busy preparing for it now. but this also means that i have to be in hall often (like now) even though we practised at night. missing my home already haha.

maybe its coz i'm getting older, but i have grown more attached to my home this holidays. i used to enjoy going out almost everyday during the hols, but all i want now is to sleep till the afternoon, eat a good lunch, laze around and watch tv. sounds like retirement haha.

and its so warm in hall. killer weather.

2009-07-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

dun this place looks like a resort?? its actually right here in SG at Savanah Condo Park! i saw pics of this condo last time, where they have a safari theme for the concept. i think its just so cool, and i finally managed to visit it when i attended Clara's 21st on Sunday. the party is nice,food's good, nice company etc, but i'm really in love with the condo! they have animal statues all around, and pavillions with rocking chairs right in the middle of the huge swimming pool.

and here's my fav!

a make-believe volcano in the middle of the swimming pool. with smoke and all. quite a big one too haha

and the final pic with us and the bday girl. welcome to the adults' club paypay!

***

and i finally got most of my pay ffrom my holiday jobs. so i can stop asking mummy for money! i'm feeling rich at the moment. before my money starts seeping away. but looking back, i am pretty lucky this hols. my jobs pay well, with minimal effort =D

2009-07-15T03:22:00.004+08:00

i have not been updating for so long coz i almost forgot i had a blog! no joke.

been meeting up with my precious friends lately. friday outing with the hostelites, sat meeting with the vultures. and we had our dinner at a Korean restaurant. my first time eating Korean apart from a food court. and because i'm so gaga over Kpop and variety shows lately, its a big deal to me. wahahaha.

and i'm finally, finally, finally getting my first paycheck for the hols. i think the rest of my money will probably come when the holidays are ending. so yea i be spending part of my blood-sweat money paying for course packs.

and dance is again taking up abit too much of my time again. so i got nothing much to update. coz i'm too lazy to haha.

off to watch Family Outing! i'm turning into such an aunty.

2009-07-07T03:41:00.001+08:00

its my first time using a body scrub and i think its one of the most amazing things ever 0_0

2009-07-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

i went prawning yesterday! yup i finally get to prawn. and it isn't at all like what i had imagined it to be. i was thinking of a big pond surrounded by grass and trees, and that there will be ample space to sit on the grass and chit-chat, with small, minature BBQ pits for every group to bbq their prawns as they wait for more prawns to get hook. and i got this misconception from someone that the prawns are really big and you can really have a good meal there coz everyone will have more than enough big prawns to eat.

i went to the bishan park one and got quite a shock. there are four tiny ponds, it was so crowded and the place is really man-made to the max. there's only 2 mass BBQ pits for everyone to share, so we have to wait till our time is up before we can really bbq the prawns. it took us a long while to get seats, and an even longer time to get prawns. i caught 2 prawns and let one slip away in the entire 3 hours. and people were puffing away on their cigarettes so there's cigarette smoke and bbq smoke all in one place. so by the time we finished prawning and bbqing and eating its already like, 5am.

dun think i will prawn again for some time. i prefer my prawns available, cleaned and dead before i boil them during steamboats.

went off while the rest were still talking coz i have been out the whole day and i'm getting old. i was wandering along the streets and thinking should i walk back home since its near yet not so near my house when suddenly i heard someone shouting my name. and there was wl! sending his friend back. such a coincidence la haha. so i got a free ride home and also got to talk to him before he flies off tonight.

***
which brings me to the point of people leaving. everyone is leaving. from hall, from dance, from sg. even those who are still in hall, or dance or in sg do not make themselves available anymore. people are avoiding meet ups, breaking promises, withdrawing from things. like what is wrong with these people? or it may be my old habit again. of wanting to stay in the rhythm of the same old much longer than necessary. maybe its time to grow up and move on.

2009-07-02T01:22:00.005+08:00

i'm in total fangirl mode right now

the beats are SICK. the tune is so damn catchy. the editing for the MV rocks. and the dance...Shaun Evaristo choreo it, need i say more? so i'm a happy happy girl. =D

~Big Bang Rocks Da Night~

***

what a good day. went out with Ning to catch Transformers! i thought almost everyone has watched it, but the grand cathay was quite full. even for a show at 3.20pm on a weekday. i wasn't really expecting much since no one say its outright good, and its the 2nd part after all, which explains the lack of plot. but i thought its really quite nice! lots of action and comical moments. and even though the plot is really not as strong as the first one, they made up for it with the action-packed scenes. although at times i can't really tell Megatron from another of the Fallen coz all of them looked so similar, unlike Optimus and their colourful colours.

had our dinner at ashton's, when we got lucky coz we managed to beat the crowd. the queue was a snake when we were eating. makes me wonder why they even bothered to wait that long haha. walked around PS (boring~) after that before heading back home.

and its already JULY 1st!! july july july. =( half the year's gone and school is about to start.

2009-07-01T02:58:00.007+08:00

nobody nobody but chew~

and that's it for AYG 09! it was probably my only time when i can get to be on international tv, and to experience how it really feels like to perform in such a professional setting. stupid me forgot to bring my camera though, so i did not have many pics of the performance day. but i had a great time, i didn't tripped like i did on the preview day, and i simply loveeee my hair!

i have always wanted to try this kind of hairstyle ever since BoA did it at the MTV Video Music Awards in Japan.

not that i'm a huge fan but i think its ever so cool as its simple yet attitude and feminie at the same time. not that i can rock it as much as her. wanted to leave the right side down too but since its a performance and everyone is going for big hair....i have to backcomb it. and i regretted that immediately when i was bathing coz i think i spent an hour in the bathroom taking outs the pins and untangling my hair.

my days suddenly seem quite empty now without the everyday pracs at the indoor stadium. not that i'm complaining much. i started off thinking that AYG is sort of a waste of time to tinking of pulling out coz i want to work to actually not minding to go for pracs to actually enjoying the last few days due to the many new friends i made over there. =) and its nice to be part of a history-making ceremony!

so next up will be rag dance~ the costumes are =___= we just have to wear lesser every year. time to start exercising.

2009-06-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

*beams*

i'm in a good mood now. i'm eating Ben & Jerry's now, had quite a good day, received some good news and generally feeling that the world is a nice place.

the only downside? i just realised that July is coming in a few days time. July!! that means...school is starting.

***
nothing much to blog about recently as i have been spending my days preparing at the indoor stadium for the big show on monday. i can't help but think how great it is to be a celebrity whenever i stand on the stage under the numerous flashing lights. isn't it wonderful to perform infront of thousands of people who supports you whole-heartedly? tomorrow will be the first full-dress rehearsal, and even though the costumes are questionable, i'm sure we will all look pretty good on stage.

and i met up with ning-a-ling yesterday for some much-needed catch up. went to tamp 1 coz i have not been there since their opening. and i was sort of disappointed with it. dun get all the hype haha. had dinner at Kim Gary for the first time too and the food was just so-so. went to my favourite yamazaki bakery and the bread i bought was also so-so. so this means i would not be going back there for some time lol. nice to catch up with a good friend though. i have not been meeting friends as much as i wished to during this hols. hopefully i can do something about it after AYG.

=)

2009-06-24T01:59:00.003+08:00

random, senseless post

there are times when i don't really like something, yet i force myself to like them. it sounds silly. but i think its working quite well now. i'm actually liking it more and more.

=D its the 24th JUNE!!! hell yeahhhhh. i'm so nervous and excited. hope there are good results.

2009-06-21T02:49:00.002+08:00

great day with great buys, great food and great company =)

its probably my first time shopping in SG after coming back from BKK coz i had a severe overdose of shopping, and i (and the amount in my bank account) can't stand shopping anytime soon. but well, its the GSS now, and my fav MNG sale has just started. so me and val stopped being aunties for once and ventured out into town for the GSS. and i got so many great buys!! now is definitely the time to splurge people. i'm trying not to think how the amount i spent today is practically equivalent to my media launch pay of 3 days.

and besides the great buys, i spent tons on FOOD today too. had my fav Japanese baby scallop pasta for lunch, followed by dinner at LJS, and then to the Isetan Hokkaido fair. i love Isetan and their fairs coz its the closest i can ever get to Japan. and there are many food for us to sample too. i read about the fair in the papers, and it did not disappoint me =D the food are heavenly. cheese cake that's so soft and light, seafood that's fresh and tasty, and the curry fried bun that's recommended in the papers. i was so full after sampling all the food. bought some to eat at home too. and i spent tons coz Japanese food are of coz, ex. =/

***

met the hostelites and we made our way to Timbre after that. and we sat and gossiped all the way from 9pm to 1am. i was so suprised to bump into fy there too haha. of all the places. its been awhile since meeting us with them, and the night just flew past coz of such great company =)

-contented-

2009-06-18T23:07:00.005+08:00

hey everyone! here's what i have been up to this week

Pictures from the Sony Ericssion Media Launch! i have learnt so much about media launches and press kits but this was probably the second time i been to another media launch. they decide to hold the media launch separately from the current CommunicAsia event, and the main purpose is to introduce its new range of phones to the media. my job was to facilitate the arrivals of the international media at the swissotel, and on the last day, i have the chance to attend the media launch. bad quality pics coz i can only use my long ago cybershot phone for the event

one of their phones which will be launched in the later half of the year, the Satio phone. its the typical touchscreen phone with some high def display screen, including lots of focus on entertainment such as music videos and games. seems like its gonna cost a bomb.

one of their Korean spokesperson for the brand, BoF actress Lee Min Jung. i'm not sure who she is coz i have not watch the entire show yet, but she's the one who acted as Goo Jyo Pyo's fiance. very pretty. kinda friendly too but same like all celebrities, she always keep us waiting. lol

but the highlight of the show has got to be Cyril! this illustionist whom i'm sure most of you have watched on youtube. remember the clip where this guy took a real burger out of a MOS burger menu display picture, take a bite and put the burger back into the picture with a bite on it? yup that's him. he performed the same feat, this time sticking his hand magically through the plastic casing to place the Satio phone into it. nothing short of amazing. and he's very charismatic and knows how to work the crowd too. all magicians have to be good at that.
***

Since i'm based at the Swissotel most of the time, we got a complimentary room for us to rest there. sadly to say, i dun find anything fantastic about it. for starters, there's no free wireless in the room, and even my 3-star BKK hotel provides that. the room itself is not bad though, with a queen-size bed, daily newspaper etc.

we also get to have 2 days worth of complimentary buffet breakfast. not much pics on that but the food is pretty good. i especially love the fresh omelettes. you can choose any fillings you want and the chef will fry it on the spot. love~
so overall...its quite an experience. but its quite a bore too coz all we did everyday was just sit around and wait for the media. and there's almost no one to talk to since we are just by ourselves at the hotel. lots of screw ups too coz its not easy to coordinate so many people. but i'm not complaining at the chance to earn more money though =D

i guess this should be the last job for me during the hols. although there's a substantial time left. haha. wun mind working for those few days one though. please intro if you all heard of any~

2009-06-15T02:28:00.002+08:00

crazy ass schedule. yesterday was one mad hectic day. flash mob where singaporeans as expected can't be bothered to really stop and look, a try at MV shooting, 4 hours of Danzppl classes at their open house, watching the awesome performances, and finally Dance Subaru with al and fy till the wee hours of the morning. i was so so so tired. but i had tons of fun =D

and i got myself a new job! its something like a facilitator for an event which i'm not supposed to say. but the ultimate perk of it? i be getting a complimentary stay for 3 days 2 nights at the Swisshotel!! weeeeeee~ i have never stayed in a local hotel and definitely not a 5-star one. finally i get to have a taste of what's luxury will be like.

2009-06-13T00:22:00.002+08:00

please please come down to heeren if u happen to be in town on saturday! i will be performing at 12 plus and 2 plus. its gonna be really interesting with a concept never seen in town before, and a hyper crowd with the Muttons DJs and some local celebs =D alternatively, a MV will be out soon i think, so you all can look out for it!

and that's about it for now. -smiles- life's good.

2009-06-11T01:25:00.002+08:00

major =(

work has officially ended and i'm going to miss the S.V.S.G aka sarah siah, vivienne lee, stephanie ang and grace goh. and the various others very nice, friendly and hilarious people and possibly the best welfare a company can ever give their employees.

9 days had gone by in a flash, yet at times it seems so slow coz there's practically no one to ask around during weekdays. i was skeptical about working at first coz i'm like the only one there without any friends with me, and coz of all the dance pracs ongoing. and work is work. which means not much fun. but i'm glad now that i sent the email at an unearthly hour and managed to get this job where i really enjoyed myself. =D great colleagues.

2009-06-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

random random
penguin and penguin
chimpanzee chimpanzee
monkey jump monkey jump (X2)
lies and suju's dan-dan-dan
cabbage patch and roti john
traffic light and building.

its hilarious the terms i used to remember my steps.

***
tomorrow will be my second last day of work. I AM SUPER SAD =(

2009-06-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

work is tiring but fun coz i have nice colleagues. and a great company which takes care of the staffs =)

but i have been really so so tired these days. mainly coz i have bad time management and zero willpower. coz i kept giving in to my cravings for more-more-MORE youtube videos, clicking on to one related link to the other. which results in my severe lack of sleep. and what's more, there are increasing dance pracs as both AYG and the Coke event are coming up really soon. stressed!

talking about Coke, something really nice will be happening at Heeren this Saturday!! two timings at 12 45pm and 2 plus pm i think. please go down and witness it! probably the first time its happening in S'pore even though other places have done such things before. i would love to tell everyone what will be happening, so that you all can come support me, but i dun wish to spoil the suprise too. so do come down to Heeren this sat if you have plans to go to town!

and its nice to find more and more fellow kpop fans. my entertainment is consumed by everything korean right now. and i'm so happy this time that there are more friends who knows how to appreciate my kind of music compared to the previous jpop craze last time. haha. music is universal.

i really should go sleep now. no i shall not give in to the temptation to enter Youtube.

2009-06-02T23:29:00.003+08:00

my 1st day at work!

and i think its the most boring, best-paying job ever. i literally stood there and stoned, my legs killing me. i wonder how i managed AYG prac after work tmr? thankfully the people there are not too bad. and i dun mind standing and stoning yet earning money than sitting at home and stoning and waste electricity.

hopefully things will pick up tmr though. more people please!

***
i would like to share some pics of my recent museum trip.

it was my first trip to the National Museum, after our very filling Nihon Mura lunch. and i had no idea it was such a nice place! totally pawns the Grand Palace museum in Bkk. too bad we went there quite late, so many of the exhibits were already closed. just want to say that i want to visit more museums!! please organise more museum outings for me =D

2009-05-29T13:31:00.002+08:00

0_0

i got my worst results ever since poly, and somehow i was not as crestfallen as i expected. maybe i know i sort of deserved it. just never expected it to be that bad. guessed i should just graduate next sem after all.

2009-05-27T23:47:00.008+08:00

Image-heavy post!!

it was a really eventful trip. and it was so different from the trip i went with the hostelites last year. i was away for 7 days, which means i can really explore BKK to the fullest. and i get to experience many things which i did not managed to do last time. but of course, it was so tiring haha. we were expecting it to be a relaxing trip since we can spread out all our stuff, but each day seems more hectic than the next.

firstly, the hotel was good. =) so much better than the one i stayed in last year. very nice rooms, delicious buffet breakfast everyday, friendly hotel staff. the only minus point was the location. which almost every taxi driver did not seem to know.

and the whole trip was spent mostly on shopping. we covered a great amount of areas. besides the usual siam paragon, platinum, chatuchak that i went to last year, we even went to many morning and night markets. which were sooo much cheaper and nicer than the other somewhat over-rated shopping places. esp platinum. i remembered enjoying it so much last year but this year it was such a disappointment. probably due to inflation and popularity. chatuchak was still good and extremely hot. and the market areas were such a pleasant suprise! lots of cheap and good stuff.

and foodwise, its totally awesome! love their food. and i think the roadside stores actually serve better food than all the food courts i went. too bad i never get to try much. my fav meals were probably from the seafood restaurant in Chinatown, which cost less than SGD50 when we had sooo much seafood. i think i ate a whole octopus for the meal. no kidding. they were so generous with the quantity. damn shiok!!

the touristy Cabbages and Condoms were awesome too! although its really quite ex. but the food is omg good. and i love the environment there. very nice atmosphere with soothing twinkling lights. the only minus point was that we were all bitten by mosquitoes. bought them to the Fuji restaurant which i went so often last year too. they loved it too =D

and i'm so going to miss all the massages!! had a total of 3 massages, including a Thai massage. its how shiok can! my muscles were totally relaxed and stop aching for a few days. we went to a really popular spa place which was again, full of tourists. and its so cheap and good. less than SGD30 for a full two hour massage. =D eat, shop and massage. that's the life man.

although there are minus points as well. poor fy got pickpocketed at chatuchak on our third day. yea that's probably the suay-est thing that can happen to anyone. luckily she only lost money and her atm card. it was quite a damper on the trip. we even went to make a police report, which was a total waste of time. haha. well, at least its an expensive lesson, so we will all be much more careful the next time.

besides that pickpocketing incident, the weather and the traffic were horrible. the jams seem to have worsen from last year. which explains why we were so tired coz we walked alot to avoid getting caught in jams. and the tuktuk and taxi drivers quote us unreasonable prices. but we managed to see another side of BKK while walking around the street markets, so it was a good thing too. hehe. and i got really tanned from sightseeing. and for those of you who wants to go sightseeing in BKK, think again. coz...its not that worth it. there's just nothing much to see except for the Grand Palace and the Reclining Buddha in my opinion.

watched Night at the Musuem 2 at the grand Siam Paragon cinema too. was there last year for Ironman. the cinema was not as comfy as the one i went last time though. but its still good enough with reclining seats and lots of leg room.

so overall, it was a really eventful and tiring trip. we were having our last dinner and reminicising everything. it was just so funny hahaha. we were real bitches in a way. haha but that's a story for another time.

and here's pictures of some of my loot from the trip! bought 3 dresses, 7 shirts, 4 blouses, 4 bags, 3 wallets, 4 pairs of shoes, 4 leggings, dunno how many accessories, lots of food and one of my best buys, 3 Big Bang CDs! at a total price of 1 CD in SG. i envy BKK for having so many original kpop CDs at such a cheap price. and Kpop is just about everywhere. i think i heard the Nobody song at least 10 times.

and i still can't get enough of travelling. wun be going back to BKK soon though i hope. its quite enough to go for 2 years in a row. and for quite long periods too. haha. taiwan soon please! tell me if you are interested!!

will be busy with meet ups, AYG and Coke dance pracs, and Aviva work soon. hectic~ but life's good. =)

2009-05-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

i had two very rude shocks today.

the first was a nightmare, literally. i dreamt that i was sitting for a History paper. and the format is 40 MCQs with like 3-4 essay questions. and i took my own sweet time doing it, getting distracted very often, talking to others etc, that by the time i realised there's not enough time left, i had only completed 19 out of the 40 MCQs. so in the dream, i rushed through all the essay questions and left a whole chunk of MCQs blank. i got back my results almost immediately. i scored 18 correct answers out of the 19 MCQs. which was really good! but of course, i failed the paper since i left so many questions blank.

IS THIS A SIGN?

coz yesterday i had a sudden thought that when i'm back from BKK (yea i be going to BKK this wed and coming back next week, for the many people who do not know), it be almost the time for exam results. so does this mean that i will flunk my papers??? ~_~ i wun be suprised if i did badly for it1003, nm2202 and nm3204. oh no. sobz

so the next rude shock happened after i woke up from my first rude shock. i really sprang upright from my dream and the first thing i saw was the time. i'm supposed to be at chinatown station at 1pm and it was already 2.20pm!!! one shock after the other. so right after jumping up in bed, i jumped out of bed. the poor girls had sent me many smses and missed calls. reached chinatown near 4pm and they had already done most of the BKK planning haha.

and then it was another mad rush from chinatown to bishan coz of my bad time management. and then to the CCAB. luckily dance prac had not really started yet. it was really hot inside. missed UCC =(

despite all the hustle and bustle, it was quite a good day. i'm looking forward to BKK and hair dye and the job interview. hopefully i get the job coz BKK is burning a hole in my pocket!

2009-05-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

zouk last night. been quite awhile since i last went club. dun have as much energy as the year 1s haha. then again, we had our fair share of clubbings when we were year 1s too. and i felt so old last night. i was almost asleep at the dance floor by the time it ended. music's so-so too. i dunno why we stayed till the end haha.

it was a really eventful night for me coz its my first time puking from alcohol. yea after clubbing for dunno how many times and thinking that no strong alcohol can ever make me puke, i vomitted after drinking free drinks at Dbl O. erps what happened? maybe coz i did not drink for too long. i understand why people swear off drinking after they puked. i even swear off tomato-sauce spaghetti after puking it from food poisoning. so now i'm thoroughly sicken by anything remotely alcohol-taste. blehhh. i be more than happy not to hit the clubs nor the drinks anytime soon.

so after a very sinful night, i'm determined to detox myself today by eating healthly and exercising. went swimming and atteneded the girl's hip hop class at SW. weee dance! it was fun! just that i almost shook my arm off in the process. met michelle there too. what a pleasant suprise =) and she intro me to her friend who's looking for hair models for his training. so i get to dye my hair for free!! yayy. tell me if anyone is interested too, coz the guy needs to look for more hair models.

not a bad day. i'm feeling really contented recently =)

2009-05-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

this blog is getting pretty stale with the lack of pictures eh? i'm definitely not putting my camera to good use. then again, i can't help not been a camwhore. or rather, i dun like the way i look in photos. actually, i dun like the way i look at all. which explains why i have not been watching my dance vids ever since getting them. one year back and i will be watching every video a million times. i think this means that instead of merely just disliking the way i look, i'm getting less interested in dance. OH NO

this must not happen. coz i be losing the only activity that can help me lose weight. no no no. hopefully the prac later will be fun and motivate me to dance again.

all these insecurities aside, i met up with the vulture minus mel on saturday evening! fun-filled evening with shimmy providing her usual entertainment value. no pics coz of the reason above.

but it was a great night out. my first time at Hard Rock having dinner. food's so-so. probably my last time if i can help it. the only nice western food place that's worth it is probably Aston's. and its kinda noisy there too, so we went to coffee club at wheelock to have drinks and chill. oh man its was a horrible experience. the drinks came after 30 mins, doesn't taste good, and seriously overpriced. went over to BKK next for zl to fatten up ( she's only like 38kg omg) and went home soon after. more outings please!! =D tampines 1 next?

and i'm so happy that i found ppl who can share my current craze. J to the I to the Fei!!

2009-05-09T01:17:00.002+08:00

what a hectic start to the holidays!

ended my final paper at 11am today. it was horrendous. we were all expecting like mostly MCQs with 2 short ans and 1 essay question, so i did not bothered to memorise much. (its the final day of exams after so long too, can you understand my mood?) and the format that came out? 10 MCQs, 27 short ans and 2 essays! i got the shock of my life haha.

but well its over, and precious holiday time should not be spent dwelling on it. went for lunch at Megabites, and i felt weird all over after eating the carbonara. i barely slept 2 hours last night (yea my bad habit never cease even up till the final paper), and i had to start packing up straight away. hard work, but i finally managed to move back home with the help of nice people. bye B303! doubt i be missing hall as much =X

came home, unpacked and went straight for the 03 class gathering. this time we spent it at bedok 85! yup the famous bak chor mee place. i had not ate the bak chor mee there before even though i went there around twice, so i finally managed to eat it today. and wow, it really is different. for those who hardly go to the east (like me), the bak chor mee only has the soup version. not the normal dried ones. and the soup is so good because of all the lard and oil in it. i was abit hesistant to eat it at first coz a small bowl seemed enough to clog up the arteries, but i ended up drinking all the soup. niceee. i like. had the other specialities there such as chicken wings, satay, otah, stingray....all the sinful stuff. yum yum. what's a post-exam treat without having something sinfully good anyway?

went home after the meal and i half-slept throughout the journey as the rest played Don't Forget the Lyrics in the car. the traffic jams lasted throughout the night la. reached home only after 2 hours later from bedok. so now i'm just so tired and can't wait for my hair to dry.

exhaustion aside, i had fun!! and tmr will be the meeting with the Vultures! ooo its been ages girls =D all hail the holidays!!!

2009-05-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

happy clubbing everyone. the music is starting to get better at this time.

jiayous to me for 2202. taking a much needed break from all the readings. i thought pea was being her usual hilarious self when she said she felt nauseous from studying her module, but i felt like vomiting too after going through 2 weeks worth of readings.

i need some loveeee~

2009-05-04T16:10:00.001+08:00

one more. one more. one more. one more.

2009-05-02T04:55:00.002+08:00

wooo~! i'm done with 3 papers. and 2 of the worst papers i ever encountered in uni. =X but its over so no point harping over it.

so i'm left with 2 more, and right after my disastrous 3rd paper, i just slacked. okok got to start studying soon. but had some fun today. watched Wolverine and its not bad. not as nice as i had expected, as its more of a story than an action-packed one. still worth it though. go watch it! its filled with hot guys. ahaha.

ok i have absolutely nothing to blog.

2009-04-27T20:22:00.002+08:00

i don't like it when i have an obsession. whenever i feel strongly about something, i will dedicate almost 90% of my time to it. and it also explains why i have many strong yet fleeting interests. i can't seem to stay on something for long.

and also, coz i lacked the willpower to stop myself from being too consumed by it. and of coz, now is totally not the time to have one. urgh.

yup i have a new obsession now. and its too embarassing to reveal it here.

snap out of it snap out of it! 2 more weeks.

2009-04-26T02:36:00.000+08:00

help.

2009-04-23T01:49:00.004+08:00

The highlight of today is my chio model friend

tall, stylish clothes, fashionable specs and the latest hairstyle. what more are you waiting for?

2009-04-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

Guys who dance well in suits and sneakers are such a turn-on

2009-04-19T03:22:00.002+08:00

There's a huge pasar malam setting up in the neighbourhood! i loveee pasar malams coz of the crowd, the atmosphere, the very cheap stuffs and the food! especially the XXL chicken chop. YUM YUM. i only like pasar malam's chicken chop coz they are all really juicy and succulent (aka lots of fatty meat), unlike the dried, tasteless ones shilin and other taiwanese eateries have.

I remember the days when pasar malam are so much more fun. My parents wil bring me to these pasar malams when i was much younger, to soak in the atmosphere. There were many more things they sold, so much more varieties. Those bubble tea shops where they have a doll bouncing up and down, candy floss, antique auctions etc.

When i was older, my parents stopped going to pasar malams. i asked my parents why they did not bring me to pasar malams anymore. My mum scoffed and said that the pasar malams now are so boring and every store sells almost the same boring things. Which is true, i guess. The same store selling the usual taiwanese sausage can be replicated across the pasar malam at least once.

And the criowd as pasar malams had changed too. I seldom see whole families walking through pasar malams. Instead, there are many people who just bought some finger food and walked away almost at once, especially during weekdays. The old crowd would be back only on weekends, and even so, the place was not as bustling as i remembered it to be. Changing lifestles maybe?

Pasar malams are a great way to get fat and waste money. However, I still like them and will most likely postpone going back to hall to study. all for that piece of XXL chicken chop. mmmm....

2009-04-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

and its the last day of school!

3219 is probably the most unique mod i ever had. sure its shitty coz the workload's heavy as its a writing mod, but its leagues apart from the other writing mod. the lecturer is really unique. for example, we all knew that we be having a mock exam today, and by mock exam, you will expect it to be a paper-and-pen thingy. but instead, we had a mini competition where we were divided into different teams and the questions were flashed up and we all had to compete to answer first. the prizes were extremely lucrative- $30 PageOne voucher! and some $10 voucher too.

but what would be the most astonishing thing that i had ever heard in a lecture was at the end, she told us that every single MCQ question just now would appear in the final exam!! but obviously no one can rem much coz we merely scanned the questions in order to ans the fastest. and the paper is like, 3 wks away. cool right. haha

it seems so fast that this sem had passed. i still remember how i studied for my previous exams. everyday in the study room which i got so sick of that i can actually find the self-discipline to study in my own room. and that's what i'm lacking this time. self-disciplined again. maybe its time to go over there again and drill some self-discipline. =/ and now i'm wondering should i go for SW class next mon when exams are so imminent.

2009-04-14T15:14:00.003+08:00

Last Weekend of fun before exams. I promise =X

Great weekend. Had Ashton's at Holland V with the hall peeps. it was really hilarious. all of us were not expecting it to be in a coffee shop, as the other Ashtons are all in nice restaurants. except rach who recommended sixth avenue coz she din know the other Ashtons are all in nice restaurants. haha. so yea, we ended up eating in a coffee shop all dressed up. food's good though.i love love their good yet cheap food.

went to this chill out place Tea Party after that. did not really spend much time there though, coz pea, rach, ray and me went to Butter Fac to meet hy and qian soon after. its been AGES since i last clubbed, so i was kinda looking forward to it. but the queue at Butter Fac was horrendous, so we drove down to Dbl O instead soon after.

no pics to show, coz i'm too lazy to carry my cam. the music's good as always! love O bar. but the service at Dbl O was kinda sucky. shall just go O bar next time for drinks. hopefully we can go with a bigger crowd next time though. the ppl there were quite weird 0_0 but generally harmless.

and now, i have nothing to do. no more proj meetings. and the lack of emails in all of my accounts means that everything has ended so its time to start studying. jeez but i really can't find the motivation to study. coz my holidays trips are getting cancelled one by one~ i'm very sad ok. =( taiwan's tix are ridiculously expensive, and bkk have all the protests. ching was suggesting gg to some island to relax, or go on a cruise. sigh. no more retail therapy.

i really dun see anything to look forward to in the hols. i dun even feel excited about performing at the Indoor Stadium coz again, there wun be anyone from hall with me. and rag dance seems abit blah too. and no more overseas trips. maybe i should just find a job and work asap.

2009-04-11T04:12:00.002+08:00

i had a nightmare last night.

maybe its the pre-exam stress, which i swear that i was not experiencing...at least not subconsciously, or maybe its the nagging guilt that i have not touched a single coursepack or textbook the entire sem, and that i have yet to start studying for any of the three papers that's in like 2 weeks time.

but i had a nightmare that felt so real. i was at home with friends in the first half of my dream, which i had promptly forgot coz there's nothing scarying about it, and i was so preoccupied that i actually did not have the time to study for my exam. and i realised that i did not glance at any notes even at like, an hour before the exam. i flagged a cab to go to school, and even in the cab, i was not doing any serious last minute mugging, and was instead in a state of shock and trying to console myself that i can smoke through this paper. i even ran through all the possible questions and ansewers in my head, which was a fill-in-the-blanks cloze passage similar to what i did in lower sec. hahaha if only my exams now are so easy.

but the point is, could this be a sign? that its time to panic and really throw myself into studying mode. coz i'm totally not feeling a single thing. AND EXAMS STARTS ON THE 27TH.

now i really want to start studying, but i just about blew another two days away coz i already had plans. sunday. i must start. must must must.

***

that aside, at least i had an enjoyable time today shopping. wheeee

2009-04-07T20:09:00.005+08:00

Over the weekend

celebrated our 2 years TH dancing anniversary at Crystal Jade steamboat. of coz a whole chunk of us are missing, but we had fun (stuffing ourselves) nonetheless. =D

watched Confessions of a Shopholic on sat. i was expecting disappointment coz i have read the series before, and no movie can ever measure up to a book. the trailer looks really bimbotic and the lead actress wasn't what i was expecting Becky Bloomwood to look like. But i thoroughly enjoyed the movie! its worth every cent. go watch it if u haven't!

nother reason for my lack of updates is due to Cookie!! no its not a new dog. its the LG touchscreen phone~

yup finally got myself a new phone after more than 2 years. i went against my initial resentment against touchscreen phones and got myself one after all. i also dunno why. i really went through alot of cognitive dissonance before getting this. but so far its working well. just that i really have to get used to texting now.

and that's it for now. can't wait for the long weekend! i will finally be done with all the projs by next mon, and its just a few weeks more to exams!! jeez.

2009-04-05T03:58:00.002+08:00

there's a string of emo posts in the 03 blog recently, and i simply did not have the time to jump on the bandwagon and blog too, much as i want to. i finally managed to do so a few mins ago, and that simple post spoke of all my heartfelt words.

i got really sad after reading everyone's posts. i was able to languish in the good ol' poly days when i was looking through the posts. come to think of it, i really did not expect to find such good friends in poly. i always thought that secondary school was the best time to make lifelong friends, same as what most people felt too. i was not expecting to make lifelong friends when i first saw my 03 classmates, waiting to go into our first class. i did not see anyone whom i will have heart-to-heart talks with, whom will always be there for me, whom will support me, whom will go all out to help me. i had the same belief even after some time, and i felt that even though i can get along well with my 03 classmates, they could not replace some friends i had.

but after leaving poly, i realised how wrong i was. sure, i have great friends, but the 03 peeps are definitely on the same rank as them, or perhaps even more so. i would not be so ambitious to say that the majority of the class cares, but i know of a selected few who does.

its only after a series of events when you will realise who are the ones who really treasures our friendship. some of my supposedly good friends are the ones who left me disappointed time and again, but the 03 peeps are always the one putting in the time, effort and passion to meet up, be there for me, or even lend a listening ear, however rare these might be. the same faces that i saw during Day 1 in poly, the ones whom i thought would be quite impossible to form firm and long-lasting friendships with, are actually the ones who show me much support during one of my most stressful periods in life, who wholeheartedly agree to help me whenever i asked for help.

i found myself tearing a little when i was reading cal cal's post. all the memories came rushing back. how we trudged up the slope everyday, the shopping breaks and eating sessions during our long breaks, the chalet which was a mere two days but prob one of the best i ever had, all the long proj sessions to the extent that we got chased out of school and resorted to sitting at the taxi stand to use the light etc.

i missed mugging in poly. i missed doing projs in poly. i even missed all the petty arguments we had when choosing group mates. i missed eating at FC6 with the girls. i missed how i'm always late for lessons and had to run up the slope. i missed all the lecturers who are uncynical and truly cares. i missed the DMS and how i struggled with photoshop, freehand and video editing. i missed how some people were initially when i first knew them, before spiralling out of control. i missed them all.

we are all going our separate ways all too soon once more. guys working/ going abroad to study once they ORD soon, girls graduating at different times and entering worklife. it will be a whole lot harder to meet up.

here's to three of the happiest years of my life, and to the most amazing class ever. we had lots of flaws, but there were always the good parts too.

***
and i realised i never once felt alone in my poly years. not that i can remember i think. and i guess that's the difference now. i'm...on my own.

2009-04-04T01:26:00.008+08:00

THIS BLOG IS NOT DEAD!

Dance Uncensored 09! haha yea this post came a little too late. a full one week after it ended. but i have been too caught in projs and more projs ever since DU ended that i barely have time to rest and relax. exams are coming in only 3 weeks time, and i just realised that i have THREE papers at the end of this month. omg.

back to DU! i have always like DU a little more than DP. even though DP means so much more and all that, but DU has always been really exciting. i love watching other halls' items, and i especially love performing in UCC. its the total proper stage environment. and the huge number of dancers around always make the place seem so crowded and cheery.

as expected, DU this year was not as fun for me as compared to last year, as there were more of my friends around. but i still had a good time! despite wasting alot of time in between as there's no wireless there, which means no work done.

and again, i'm slightly amazed at how much a year can change things. i see familiar faces all around DU this time, instead of strangers. but then again, hall dancers were much closer and able to bond more last year. i still remember rach and her hilarious questions, the huge dressing rooms we had, and how much more it really felt like a good bonding camp instead. good ol' times.

we had 3 shows this year, which was quite tiring for those in many items. i only had two, so i managed to sneak out with some of the girls during the afternoon show to watch some performances. the other halls were good. or maybe its just the UCC lights and stage at work. but DU is always so worth watching. the tix is free, with so many items. really feel like just coming to watch next year. love performing, like watching. how?

and now that DU has ended, i have been feeling so relieved and alert. haha. its really time to take a breather from dance. i was expecting withdrawal symptoms to kick in, but i find myself thinking that its such a good thing that i need not rush off for dance again. its a really busy period. so i shall hang up my dancing shoes, and start practising again after the exams ended.

and i'm finally able to come home! and enjoy a good weekend. for next week will be a baaad one. haha

2009-04-01T01:32:00.001+08:00

its busy proj times like this when i will truly missed the best poly proj mates. i'm convinced JC kids can't compared with us. URGH

2009-03-31T09:34:00.003+08:00

hellos world

i've been very lazy. which explains the lack of updates. i shall update about DU very very soon! with all the pics and exciting stuff. hehe

i'm now in my 3219 class, and the tutor is droning on about our project. its madness. there are about a million things due next week. but i'm sure i can cope with it coz there's no more dance now, and the impact is amazing. i'm feeling so much more alert in the early morning and not dog-tired like the past few weeks.

i made a mistake last night when slept from 9 to 12pm. and ended up sleeping at like 6am. sigh. i had a facinating dream about vampires though. where all the vampires and victims are the dancers. haahha. damn funny. my alarm woke me up halfway though =(

back to proj discussion.

2009-03-28T03:08:00.002+08:00

its a bad day =(

total waste of time, skip lessons for nth, and this girl is being a total bitch.

"like whatever la"

urghhhh

2009-03-26T02:44:00.003+08:00

i'm really excited for DU now =D

i'm in 2 items with very strong dancers. so there'a an additional pressure to not look so cui. practised in the mfr since 7 just now. and i can say that things are starting to look up.

and there were very strong dancers in the mfr just now. including Mr Neyo! i think he's so cool after attending his master class at camp that time. i'm feeling inspired to try different types of styles during the hols!

shall get all my assignments done tmr. so i can enjoy the final 3 days of my dance year to the max!

2009-03-23T20:19:00.005+08:00

Incandescence 09

It was a total BLAST! I love every single second of it. I have waited one whole year for this very day to come again. and it came and flew past without me knowing. its as if i zonked out during the entire 1.5 hrs show and woke up at the post-concert. i dun remember doing any steps, anything at all.

we reached there early in the day, preparation for the show as usual. and the time flew past. before i knew it, its time for make-up and getting ready. even though the make-up room was kinda chui and we did not have professional hair stylists this year, everyone still looked really good!

and all too soon, the first item was up on the stage. we were a bundle of nerves while waiting. well i was quite nervous, but not entirely as jittery as the rest. haha. all i can think of was what would my friends think of me, of my item etc. haha even though i promised myself to just have fun and enjoy dancing. i guessed i'm still somewhat self-conscious this year as most of them who were coming had not seen this dance side of me before, unlike the usual hall people.

we were soon told to go backstage, and as i had said before, everything flew past in a blur. the audience was awesome! totally high. i was really nervous before my item though. its so much easier to forget your own steps seriously. i heard friends shouting (esp u weiliang hehe) which somehow helped calm me down instead of making me even more nervous. haha. at that instant, i just wanted to put on a good show, to showcase my baby, the entire 4 min 52 sec of it. The one that i had spent months preparing for, cracking my brains over, drying up my creative juices, and spending alittle too much time on.

and once its over, it all seemed totally worth it. the audience's reception was great. people laughed. they cheered. clapped. shouted. i would not know if they like it because they are our friends, or did they really enjoy it. but it did not matter anymore. i myself had fun, i actually did an entire item by myself, and i'm feeling more pride than i ever had =)

the post-concert was even more awesome. what a difference a year makes. i received much more flowers than i did last year, and precious presents which i will treasure. it still baffles me as to why my friends would come watch me, but i'm so happy that they did. took pictures with every single one of them =D

and here's my thank-yous to all these wonderful people who came all the way to NUS High on a precious saturday night where they could be out celebrating their weekends.

Vultures: even though its not a full-force, i appreciated you all all the same. I love the sunflower and Mr Bear. School work is a bitch, yet you all were willing to put it aside and gave me a few hours of your time. i hope i didn't disappoint =) i volunteer myself to be the first to organise an outing right after the exams!

DMC 3B03: I would never expect such a turn-out last year. i'm so touched at how willing everyone were to support me when i posted the invitation on the blog that time. i wasn't even expecting much of a reply actually. but you all proved me really wrong! i'm sure this is not a side of me everyone was expecting to see haha. its really funny yet touching when i saw how excited you all were. it meant so much to me =D thanks for all the screams and huge support!!

Cathay peeps: I wasn't really intending to ask you all at first, coz i'm not too sure if you all enjoyed the previous year one. And you all are not the type to even club dance in the first place. So i'm really touched when i decided to invite you all and almost everyone agreed. and this time there's even the pretty pink flowers too! no more plucking of random flowers (inside joke) again this year! hahaha

Blast-ards: a big shout-out to yvonne especially. you are one of the first few to agree to come, and who always left words of encouragement for me. i dun have many friends there, and i really considered you as one of my close ones there. and thanks to pretty jesmine, eva and karen for the very pretty red and white roses too!

and last but not least...the people who made an impossible dream come true

my rockstars!: a really great bunch of people. hardworking, zero black faces and probably the best dancers a choreo could have. even though they are mostly juniors and are not as good as the seniors dancewise YET, and i had to clean up and teach really slowly, i will still take them over any of the others anytime. we have all grew considerably together in the slow and ardous process to DP, and from an initially passive me, i could really see how much they had all improved individually. dance has been a wonderful thing to me, and the impact was alot greater back when i was in yr 1. i still love dance, but i sort of lost the zest for performing since i had already performed quite a few times. i hope that as a choreo, i managed to instill some passion in them, and not kill off any possible interest they had in the first place haha. its still uncertain whether i will be in hall dance again next year, let alone choreo-ing again. but i do hope as many of them can stay on as possible.

i have always wondered what will happen in DP 09. i remembered crying uncontrollably last year, when i'm still such a fresh dancer and thinking that its my first and last concert since i would not have enough points to stay. and look at how things worked out. i managed to stay on, took part in rag dance, joined Blast!, started choreo-ing, first for Family Hour, and den DP, and even be in the main comm. i was in so many performances that i never expected to be in. and i hope that this is the start of their journey, for the jrns.

and so, this spells the end of another hall dance year. and i can't help but wonder how next year will be. my impending graduation, the number of seniors leaving, my closest dance friends not staying etc. but well, there's still DU to worry about. and even though DU is peanuts compared to DP for me, i shall try my best to enjoy the rest of the week before putting a real stop to academic dance year 09.

cheers to a dance-free day! and to the very xiong 6 dance-filled days ahead. =)

2009-03-21T02:24:00.001+08:00

ITS SHOWTIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so excited now can. i can't believe this day has finally arrived. i can't rem much of sem 2 except dance dance and more dance. haha. and to think its finally the 21st of March!!! woohoooo

LET'S KILL IT!!!

2009-03-20T01:46:00.003+08:00

bump-in day today. and i'm so sleepy now. exhausted.

but i got to finish my part of the report by tmr night. how?

its the simple little actions that makes me smile

2009-03-19T04:24:00.001+08:00

and a few hours later will be bump-in day. so exciting can??!!

2 more days 2 more days. omg

2009-03-18T03:42:00.002+08:00

there have been lots of exciting things in my life recently. pea's awesome 21st, which is probably the best bday party i ever been to coz its really hilarious and programmes were well-planned out. photos up on fb. i'm too tired to post.

just around 4 more days left. its dance every min every day. i dun rem doing anything else. i cannot eat my dinner in peace for ages, and always at weird timings or in between breaks. i have not been doing my sch work. i barely sleep. i saw how the jrns and even the seniors complain about how tiring it is. but no one ever thought about the choreos, and the main comm especially. i realised how lucky i was to just have to dance and learn steps last year while everything was taken care of. we would still have the energy to go for suppers. this year, everyone just rushed back to their rooms to do work or dapao back. and the ones who get to go for suppers and bond are of course those lucky ones as i was last year.

i'm working myself to the bone. or am i just overly hardworking?

2009-03-14T04:06:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling it this time. i'm really feeling it!

the same old adrenaline rush, the same old DP feel as last year.

things have been shaping up well recently. the full run today was the best i had seen so far. and my item was complimented! i'm feeling so relieved la. and i could even see people bobbing and smiling away as we danced. the atmosphere was really there. =) i'm glad that my dancers are enjoying. now i just have to clean up everything (esp the 4th song *smacks head*) and i can say that we are ready for the show!

it was a really good run just now...all the items were almost there. compared to the previous vetting. just hope that they dun get complacent. being over-confident is probably the worst thing to be feeling before a concert. hope everyone can heed hui's words and spured further ahead instead of taking them for granted that we will definitely put on a good show.

exactly one more week to DP...suddenly everything seems almost worth it. even though i know i'm in deep shit after DP. the amount of long nights ahead rushing reports and catching up on work. just one week left to perhaps my final DP. i must really treasure every moment =)

i will be a full-time dancer for this week. dance would be the only thing. let's go everyone!!

2009-03-13T04:20:00.002+08:00

its 4.20am. and i'm so so so damn hungry now. i want to sleep so i can just sleep the hunger away but i can't coz i have 2 more pages to go for my report due tmr. this is so screwed =(

2009-03-12T03:19:00.001+08:00

highly stressed period = very angsty TH dancers

2009-03-11T17:08:00.004+08:00

if i say i will stop going for Blast next sem, and perhaps only perform for the occasional small hall performances, or maybe even not at all, would people be shocked?

***

and since many people are happily reading what i typed almost daily, can you all be so nice to do a survey for me? thanks

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2009-03-10T02:12:00.002+08:00

i'm just left with 3 more lines to choreo.

less than 2 more weeks to DP. i dun even know how the preparation for DP went this year. everything just pass by in a blur.

someday, i will look back at Dp08/09, and marvel at how did i managed to come up with an entire item on my own. its definitely not the best, nor the most memorable, nor even the neatest, but its definitely remarkable enough for me.

2009-03-09T01:55:00.002+08:00

the second vetting just now was plain horrible.

i forgot my steps. i screwed up my own blocking. i cringed when i saw the video. perhaps i was too complacent. assuming that every single step for my 3 items have been registered to muscle memory. i did not practise what i preached. i did not practise steps at night. i did not listen to the songs over and over again. i'm too relaxed with my own item practises. i always watch and did not join in when they were running through the item.

i'm so sad. i keep screwing up my life recently. studies, time management, dance. i wonder what's wrong with me. =(

and here at 2am, i'm drowning a can of root beer that's too sweet for my liking in the hope that i can have a sugar rush. coz there's so many things to be done. research for projects, preparation for meetings, assignments due and the choreo for the last song. all to be done A-S-A-P, capital, italic, bold, highlighted.

i just feel like curling up in bed and waking up on the 22nd of march.

2009-03-08T01:46:00.002+08:00

another lengthy and wordy dance post ahead

jeez. the one thing i dun like about a dance performance is hunting for costumes. sure, costumes are really important, makes you look good on stage, and perhaps even divert attention from any messy steps. but its just so troublesome when you dun have anything that your choreo want. which is usually the case for me coz i'm not the glam kind of dancers who have chio fur coats or bling bling hip hop stuff. i usually just wear the plain old Giordano shirt and ugly but comfy bottoms for practises =( and my friends all do not have the stuff that i want too of coz, since they are all normal students like me.

and so i was searching for all my costumes at J8 just now and i was getting more pissed off by the minute. i dunno, i'm just in an angsty mood. J8 is probably one of the last places to find costumes, but i dun really have the time to head out to town. all the stuff there were either not suitable or suitable yet ex. so i have to settle somewhere in between not as nice but not that ex. finally found kevin's checkered shirt ( not that cheap lo) and my rockstarish stuff (super ex can! think i just buy one accessory). There's still the other costumes for other items that i had not paid. all these money for one night of performance. $12 for a ticket is really worth it k! i'm very tempted to be a spectator myself. =/

was in hall for the luncheon performance today. the food was great =D but the audience disappointing. coz we were the last performance and everyone zao-ed after lunch. which was understandable coz that's what i will do too. i'm just glad to go home chop chop afterwards. i miss home =(

and back to the mfr tmr. 2 more weeks to DP! please transfer money to my account soon okays? for those who are buying tix. love ya all

2009-03-06T03:18:00.003+08:00

sigh. what a day.

i dunno what's wrong with me recently. my head seems to be in the clouds. i confuse everything i do, i'm not really sure what's going on, i'm not even sure how am i feeling. had the IT1003 test today and i actually read the instructions as 5 questions, 8 pages instead of 8 questions, 5 pages. so yea i left plenty blank. although i think almost no one managed to finish the entire paper. but was still feeling quite irritated by myself for being so blur. i have been screwing up my tests lately.

rushed for dance after my test, and then back to hall for dance again. pretty uneventful today. did nothing much except cleaning ups and blockings. yawn. i dislike such sessions.

went for supper at sheares. we had two huge chickens haha. shared among 5 of us. we were all stuffed la. what happen to my no supper rule. lol. but its been quite some time since we all had our beloved sheares chicken. 15 more days to DP. i shall cease supper till then. i must make sure of it.

that's it. not in the best of moods tonight.

***
just my luck. and at such a seemingly neutral thing. it doesn't help at all. =/

2009-03-05T03:02:00.002+08:00

i have cute friends.

i have nice and hardworking dancers.

i can catch Pat's choreo today.

This wednesday is good =)

Just that...i really really need more time.

give me some more time

2009-03-03T02:27:00.002+08:00

oh gosh what's wrong with me?? i only choreo-ed 2 8s for the entire day. and i have not study anything. can't help nua-ing around though time is so important now.

today's the first day of school and i really feel like a student again. it has been a long week and i sort of miss going to lessons. really. but i guess the feeling would not last for long haha.

and i really should set my priorities straight now. i'm so bad at handling various stuffs. if i dance, i can't study. if i dun dance, i also cannot study. this is bad.

no mood to blog further. =( i'm still feeling worn out.

2009-03-02T04:07:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG

there's this weird gushing sound all throughout the night. like a sallowing sound. i have been wondering what it was all night long and i dun have a clue. i checked my shelves, my bags, my table. nothing.

then i peeked under the blinds that's covering of my windows and i SAW A HUGE ASS LIZARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i really screamed can. then it got scared of me and it ran outside the window. i think that's about my best patch of luck this entire month. imagine if it came inside. i wun dare to sleep la. damn scary. i hate lizards man.

i really should sleep now. had our first vetting just now and i'm just damn shagged out. too long since i have more than one item i guessed. and i'm only in 3 items. that's like how little right.

and it kind of worries me that everyone is so busy with tests now. i keep checking that i really only have one test. its a gem and open book somemore. not trying to gloat about my luck coz i think i will die later since there are so many projs to be done. but i guess i really should take this time to finish choreo-ing and just whack the steps so i can have time and the braincells for my projs later.

3 more weeks. i must survive!!

2009-03-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

=)

i'm a happy girl today.

practically dragged myself to go SW in the day. coz my package expires tmr and i'm left with like 6 classes to clear. same as hy but she ps in the end as usual. oh well. i was dead tired from the stuff this week. was even contemplating to skip the classes myself.

but i'm so glad i did not! had yutaki's class at first and i think he is a really good teacher. coz he always give very sound advice. and i love the choreo! which gave me inspiration for my third song. and then's bryan's wacking class next. i'm liking wacking more and more! its something new apart from the wacking i'm doing in hall now. so i left SW even more shagged out, but very tempted to try new classes from various schools. should try not to just limit myself to hall and Blast. it gets kind of boring after a while. shall sign up for a new package during the hols. and maybe try out reggae at O School =)

came home after that. i miss homeeee. was supposed to have a movie outing with the cathay peeps but it was called off coz we cannot decide on a movie together. haha. was kinda tired to go out too. spent the night watching TV.

sigh i miss this kind of life.

2009-02-27T02:26:00.003+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates! have been really really busy with everything. its totally not a recess week haha.

have been dancing everyday recently. DU, hall dance etc. but its better now coz many things are starting to fall into place. suddenly i see some light for THDP. everyone's been working hard and learning fast. we have either finish learning almost all the steps, or blocking the first few songs. so...i think its getting better!

and my dancers have been really nice people. was feeling quite stressed at one point in time coz they dun seem to be getting anything. but i saw a huge improvement suddenly. guess the vids help. and they are hardworking enough to watch and recap steps, something which i did not really expect hall dancers to take seriously. so hopefully it will be a good item. the pressure is now on me to churn out new steps almost everyday. =X

and i'm really feeling worn out recently. Blast class killed me totally on wed. i was already tired in the first place. i had no idea why i went. guess its just the good attendance streak in me. rushed back to hall for my own class till 9 plus.

and i dunno why but i went off to Zouk at night. hahaha. coz rach can sign me in and i just want to get out of hall. so why not right. met rach and her frens, drank a little, and went off to find some Blastards. it was an okay night, but the music downright sucks. its only good for like, 30 mins? i almost fell asleep on the dance floor la. in the end, i only had like 3 hrs of sleep before waking up for DU prac.

okays enough abt dance. its totally eating up my life haha. i really should try not to kill my health and sleeping habits. have not been meeting up with so many ppl. sorry to val who have been constantly msging me to meet up whenever i'm free coz i'm the busy one. and to yc too. and of coz my cathay peeps. we used to meet once almost every two weeks but recently we have been meeting so much lesser. sigh. and of coz the vultures. but i guess we are all too busy with our own lives once more...

and sorry for all those boring emo posts. i have been feeling better recently but i just do not have the time to blog about it. thanks to all who showed me concern. blessed to have you guys =)

and i really should start studying soon. gosh.

2009-02-24T02:05:00.004+08:00

just came back from yet another dance prac.

kinda worried about my item still. i dunno what to expect. i want them to do it well of coz. and even though i know they are not exactly good (yet), i can't help but think of what others will think. i received some words from some of my close friends today. not encouraging.

sometimes i also dunno what am i dancing for. its a short-term self-fulfillment i guessed. but who can actually understand the stress, the late nights, the unhealthy eating habits and the time spent on dance? only those in dance. not even your closest friend can understand how its like to put up a show. comments can be said casually, which can make me feel sad or uneasy. performing arts is indeed a very cruel thing.

and you tell them, how much u like dancing. but of course, they wun understand. they will just look at the positive side. "oh ya, u like dancing so much. you must be happy even after sacrificing so much time and sleep. don't make it sound so stress. you enjoy it." true that. but still, can anyone really understand the entire process? there may be joy, but the amount of hard work put in can be appalling at times. deep down, it just seems stupid to them, that i'm "wasting" my time, not putting as much effort into studying, not having a life. after all, what can dance bring after graduation? while they all move into high paying jobs with their good grades.

sometimes, i dunno who my true friends really are. those whom i expect to know me well, are not what they seems. maybe coz of the long time apart, that i'm so immersed in hall and dance, that the friendship has changed. maybe they are not my true friends anymore. or maybe i never had one in the first place. coz no one seems to understand.

perhaps there will be a time in the future that i will look back, and feel that dancing in my uni days are a "waste of time". that the time can be spent better on readings, assignments, and not neglecting my friends. but it be all too late by then.

shall just pray for the best.

2009-02-23T16:44:00.002+08:00

it was a nice weekend =) went for TH's Productions In Erised. its...not my cup of tea. we were all kinda waiting for it to end. haha. probably coz its too chim. but i appreciated the effort everyone put in. just that i feel that its time we should do more light-hearted, brainless fluff stuff. and a musical!

we went to Wine Connection afterwards. its so nice that everyone can make it! really everyone. its quite awhile since we had such a huge outing. went there to supposedly discuss abt Taiwan but ended up sharing ghost stories instead. hahaha. but i'm still excited about Taiwan nonetheless! weee i so want to go shop and eat. and shop and eat somemore! not v keen on surfing or cycling though. haha at most just go off and explore myself. i wun mind.

and now i be in hall for the whole week. sigh. its so quiet and lonely here. since most ppl are not around. i just dun like to be in hall during hols. but i dun have much of a choice haha. and i think i'm dancing abit too much. hall pracs, DU pracs and have to clear my SW package within this week. sigh. maybe i should skip Blast on wed.

boring boring boring. got no mood to do any work

2009-02-20T01:22:00.002+08:00

oh gosh i'm so afraid of the days that lie ahead. i just wrote everything down in my organiser and my schedule is scarying. ok it isn't that bad if i dun have my own item to think of. and it seems like i'm probably one of the slowest coz everyone are either using only 3 songs, or have dancers who can catch steps fast, or acting 50% of the time.

stress stress. i'm v scared can. i really hope i can teach faster. there's almost nothing in my life now except dance. was it like this last year? i dun seem to remember. or maybe i have just grown older and weaker. and i may not be able to cope.

***
and thanks for all the concern. i will get better after some time. but no, i won't be saying what happened. sorry. haha.

2009-02-19T02:21:00.005+08:00

what a day

life's a joke for me again.

i was an emo wreck today. yada yada. i was so sad can. something happened.

but i managed to get better at night. coz even though i'm always stressed out for choreoing, my dancers are all nice hardworking people who pays attention diligently. which makes my work easier. the only thing is...they obviously can't do what i want them to. yet, i hope.

qian and hy make me laugh. thank yous =)

but i'm alone in my room now. and i'm forced to be emo once more.

-stabs myself-

2009-02-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

I FREAKING JUST DUG MY OWN GRAVE.

2009-02-16T16:33:00.002+08:00

In all my years of studying, i have never even been late for a single paper, be it a minor quiz or a major exam. so imagined the shock i got when i walked into the LT for my 3215 mid term and found everyone already hard at work!!!! major !!!!! the lecturer sent 3 emails and i read everything wrongly. so i was late for 30 mins for a paper for the very first time in my life.

but luckily, its an MCQ paper and i managed to complete well ahead of time. but still pissed at myself though. whatever's happening to me??

the weather is not helping either. it was really warm last night when i was trying to study and it got postively HOT today. i feel that i will melt into a lump of fats anytime, and people will slip on the oil that are oozzing out from my fats. its that hot can! both my 2 fans in hall are on at full blast from now on.

talking about blast, i will be the only one among my hall friends going for class this sem can! coz one quit, one wants to study, and another got lecture. i hope my emcc friends will be there. if not i will be another lonely soul again. arghhhh.

and talking about dance, major ARRGGHHH. had the comm meeting last night and i think we successfully stress them into realising how tight time is. the only thing is, those who attended are the ones who have been turning up regularly, so what's the point right. sigh. went back to my room and invited everyone i can to the DP. and i regretted immediately once i send out the invitations coz its making me even more stressed. hahaha.

all talk, no action. shall sleep awhile and wake up to -sigh- choreo later.

haunting my thoughts
and i miss you so....hope to cya this week...=)

2009-02-15T03:13:00.004+08:00

the little happy things that keep me sane

1) i love jt's choreo can? If U Leave~~~
2) met up with 03 mates on fri night. short gathering, but still happy
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ok not many things haha. and i'm in even deeper shit now. there are tons to study for 3215. i have not started on my assignment due on fri. i have not do my assignments for 3204. i have not choreo

but i will survive. i have to

and dance in hall on thurs night was a weird affair. des, qian, char and me seemed to be in a daze and could not remember anything. i was perfectly fine during DU prac though. thus i attributed this to the post-concert blues. and we all agreed. we missed emcc =(
move on, shing

2009-02-13T17:16:00.008+08:00

sigh. i'm so super stressed now. have been feeling really stressed ever since we had main comm meeting just now. there's not much time left to DP at all. only 2 more weeks to vetting can u believe it?!! i din realise how the days can fly by so fast la!! arghhh freakin stressed can!! can you all tell how stressed i am by all the exclaimation marks??!!!??!!

and apart from all that dance, next week will be a hell week school wise. 1 mid term, 1 assignment and another presentation. OMG. how to come up with steps and blockings? not to mention all the other choreos are stepping up their practises too. and wat about DU vetting? DU item? it all clashes =(

and i might as well mention it now...my DP will be on the 21st of March, Saturday, at NUS High School. i'm well aware that its ah zhao's bday so that means my group of close friends may not come. and this year we have to sell so many tickets too. please my dear friends, i have been a really nice friend haven't i? (i hope) so please come and watch me dance okays? hehe

and its vday tmr! received flowers and chocs from my dear B3 babes. abit cute coz we basically bought for each other and gave each other the same thing so its like buying for ourselves. but its the thought that counts of course.

and this year is probably the only time i'm glad to spend vday alone. wun even be asking my single friends out as usual. coz i got a freakin lot of things to do which REMINDS ME OF THE SUPER STRESSFUL TIMES AHEAD ARGGGGGGGGGHHHH

and u stupid stupid stupid. u....haiz. sad....it prob dun meant anything

2009-02-12T15:35:00.009+08:00

i freaking missed my Halloween peeps now can. =(

TH dancers. all 7 of us in 6 different items! go figure.

my dearest qian. so uber cute. ~pinches

Phoebe who's really crazy and funny

Fritzie who's always so easy-going

shiru! so sweet
applie my make up and hair stylist for the day

tracy who is so small and cute, and the first senior who was so friendly to me when i'm feeling all lost and alone at first

yvonne who's just so nice and thoughtful.

krystal is ultra pretty la! another crazy girl haha

shaun...a really nice guy haha.

zhiwen! i will miss your blur face and tactics

elson damn shuai. why can't my teachers ever look or dance like that.

and many many more which i'm too lazy to upload here haha.

post-concert...thanks huiyi for coming so early to queue for the tix!

pea and ray! i love u 2. thanks for coming!!

many more pics on fb, of many others who maked the whole concert a success. ((((=

It was a wonderful day, and definitely not as tiring as the first. and there was plenty of time to camwhore for us not-as-important dancers haha. we were in our own world upstairs, mostly the juniors and some non-intimidating seniors. all the zai and important ones have rooms downstairs. its really quite funny. reminds me of Mediacorp where the ah jies have their own chair and all hahaha. just have to accept that Blast works that way too.

we began the day with another tech run, and then we were soon free to explore or go off for awhile. took this time to talk to many others, and slowly start to change and do our make up. alvan wants us to look scary but we all want to look pretty instead, so we make ourselves pretty of coz haha. dressing and making up is one of my fav parts of a concert. and UCC dressing rooms makes me feel like a star with all its lights. we girls just poured all our make up stuff on the table and used each other's. and since i'm still a total noob about stage make-up and hair despite performing for quite a few times, my nice seniors helped me to look really va-va-voom. =)) camwhored alll the way. haha.

spent about 2 hours getting dressed and painting our faces as the guys just looked on and recap steps. had dinner, and i was suprisingly hungry. ate, and then proceed on to replenish our make up again. by then, the queue was starting to form outside and soon, the tix were all given out. i wasn't feeling nervous about the steps at all, but i had a morbid fear of not being able to take out my mask on time. hahaha. we were all practising and timing ourselves the whole day. so funny LOL.

and all too soon, we were due to go down and i was feeling so excited yet sad. coz this will be the last time i'm doing the halloween dance. (awwwww) and then it was time, and we went in, and it was over just like that. its amazing how different it feels to be dancing infront of an audience. you dun seem to be thinking of any steps and everything just comes naturally to you without you even thinking about it. haha. and i know i did not screwed up =D

went back and camwhore somemore before going down for the curtain call. and everyone camwhored even more when the curtain closed haha. regretted not bringing my cam down with me. but i did leech off others' cams and is now waiting for everyone to tag me lol.

had quite a bad scare when i was rushing off to meet my friends outside coz i thought i lost my security pass la. wah lau. in the end it was already at the security table. wonder who took it. so i was keeping them waiting at the lobby. but i'm so glad that at least there were friends to watch me haha. i was kind of prepared for ppl pulling out at the last min or no more tix for them. in the end, there was even lydia and jack who came. thankiew guys very much!!

i hoped that after this concert, going to classes will be better now. and i should think so. it has definitely bonded everyone better. it was such a good experience, and it really motivated me to study harder so i can have an additional year. ~fingers crossed~

i LOVE Blast!

thanks you(s) for all the laughter

2009-02-11T00:32:00.002+08:00

(((((((((((((((=

i had such an amazing, fun day. it was full run, tech run, plotting etc at UCC for the concert today. and i had a great time with the Blast peeps, who made me laughed. alot. took a look at the other items and everyone did improve alot as compared to vetting. so those who will be going are in for a good show!

and i missed performing in UCC so much. i just missed performing in a concert. the atmosphere and everything feels really different at UCC, with professional lightings and all. and even though it is not really a top-notch performing hall, that place holds many memories for me. so even though there are lots of free time in between, its a good time for everyone to bond and talk. =D

and again, i will really really missed this concert once its over. and to think its such a mini concert. haha. i will probably feel kinda empty once its over, even though there's hall dance (argh) and DU left. coz everyone is like, bonded and starting to feel really belonged, yet everything is ending soon. and my item peeps are really funny ppl. there are definitely some whom i can click with more than the rest, and i'm just happy to make new friends even though we prob will drift apart after it ends. but at least, i'm having more blast! friends, and i'm really happy. =D

shall post a more detailed post once the concert is over. and it will be back to work right aft the concert. sigh. proj meeting on thurs, mid terms on mon and a presentation on tues. all good things come to an end.

and i will miss them. especially u =)

2009-02-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

i'm so proud of myself today. i managed to drag myself to class despite a really tiring thursday, and having slept at 5am after completing my assignments. and i did not sleep alot during it1003 class. and i started preparing my proj once i came back. did not even lie on my bed. and then the girls came and it was the very xiong project meeting from 4 to 9pm. i was contemplating going for SDE bash at gotham but i did not in the end. instead, right after the girls left, i started work on my part of the project so i can emailed them asap. finally finished near 11pm.

I'M A CHANGED PERSON.

hahaha. seriously if i can be so hardworking as the past two days, i would have achieve quite abit this sem.

and i shall start work on my next project, then do my dance costume before taking a break for the day. claps claps

2009-02-06T03:35:00.003+08:00

I really like Thursdays =)

come Thursdays, my love for dance seems to be exploding. coz i really really like DU's combined item choreo! its just so cute and nice la. i had not dance a purely hip hop item with such a unique concept before. and the steps are just dope. the only problem is if i could catch them haha. and then its back to TH for kevin's item. maybe i'm used to his style, that's why i feel quite comfortable when learning it. though i seemed to be unable to bring out the exact feel he wants though. will work harder =)

and i'm still contemplating to join the jazz item. hmmm. most likely no. can't do all the attitude and chante or charade or watever you call them. but i think that's such a cool item though. and again, i'm really glad that i'm in DU this year coz it makes up for my only-3 items in DP.

it will be a busy week ahead. then again, since when is my week not busy? the concert is on Wed, so there be full runs and blockings to be done in UCC. i miss the feeling of preparing for a concert. shall relish the moments before EMCC pracs come to an end.

and i have not done anything yet for my proj meeting tmr. argh guilty. shall start on it now. sigh. and its already near 4am.

2009-02-05T03:37:00.004+08:00

damn i hardly have time to update my blog as regularly as before. Have been having dance dance dance and more dance. and of coz, the workload is increasing with an assignment due on fri and a presentation next wed.

my emotions seemed to be on a rollercoaster ride these days. i was really sad last night, over some insensitive people who would not give others the chance, that i really wondered why am i wasting my time for. but i'm glad that i have nice friends who do not mind lending a listening ear, and so i managed to cheer up after awhile =)

and today was a goood day. despite all the 9am pracs on sat mornings, and how troublesome it is to make the costume, i will still missed my EMCC item dancers. coz they are a really funny bunch. hahaha. everyone are really friendly, and there's hardly any division of senior/junior within my item, unlike others. and everything will end on next wed. =( and today's prac was really hilarious. i have come to really like this item even though i do not have a good impression of it at first. =)

and i'm glad that my own dancers are dilligent and guai. hope they keep it up. den i will be a happy choreo.

taking a mini break from dance for tmr. got to do all my work. and then i be looking forward to 2 of my fav dance pracs at night!!

Dance makes sy vvv happy

2009-02-02T03:21:00.005+08:00

Funka 09!

was there with the Blastards, and i was actually quite suprised that so few of them were there. especially when we can get in for free and even get paid for been "dance ambassadors", although we did not do much.

the event was great! the atmosphere was electrifying, so much better than Danzwar at St James that time. the organisers really make full use of the Chingay decor, with excellent sound system pumping R&B, and the lights and lasers which really created the mood of the event. and we managed to get a very good view of the competition, which explains the clear photos.

and the teams were generally much better than the ones i saw at Danzwar too, although i only know 2 competitors personally. the concepts were really diverse, and i enjoyed most of them. the somewhat-of-a-blast! team exceeded my expectations, having improved ALOT from the semis. and my personal fav, the really hilarious and gayish Pink $ crew won! although i personally felt that the judges should have chosen a better crew for the 2nd position haha.

stayed for around 2 hrs after the competition ended, dancing the night away. its like the first time when i really do not feel the need to drink a little in order to dance, coz the people whom i'm with were all unnaturally high hahaha. and again, the atmosphere was really good too, so i enjoyed myself thoroughly even without drinking. really healthy isn't it? and i did not spent a single cent too hehe.

stayed till around 1+am, when the music gets suckier. they probably started playing trance for the many angmohs there. but of coz, trance is really not my type, high or not. so me and frens left the area, partially deaf, and walked slowly to clark quay to take the NR back.

and i felt really inspired to join a competition, though not such a big one as funka. i want to experience that kind of adrenaline rush, which will be even greater as compared to performances. and i realised that with interesting formations, refreshing concepts (and if you are good enough), it really doesn't matter the number of dancers there are in an item. this perhaps somewhat make me feel hopeful about my own item haha. i will be able to survive with 11 dancers. =)

2009-01-30T02:30:00.005+08:00

CNY 09. the pictures are self-explainatory. eat and eat and eat. and the photos are from only the first visit. i ate ALOT. but i enjoyed myself too =) my parents will continue visiting through out the weekend, and they kindly excused me from going too. haha. coz sometimes i feel that visiting is a chore =X very tiring leh.

and so now its back to school i.e. tutorials and assignments. my first project meeting will be held next week. urgh so v reluctant to do work again. perhaps coz i really dun enjoy most of my mods this sem, with the sucky timetable. i'm usually starving or brain-dead by the time i finished my lessons coz i do not have any breaks in between at all. i guessed it makes it easier for meetings though.

joined the DU combined hall item. and i'm so glad to be in it. coz its just like a Blast item! the choreo is really really fast, but really really nice. feeling demoralised as usual when i'm with the Blastards, but pushing myself is the only way to improve. and so i'm quite hyped up for it, but kinda worried that i can't catch though. so i'm in four items this time, and everything is a mad rush coz its all back-to-back. but i dun mind though! love this kind of dance-filled life =)

had kevin's prac just now and i really like it! much better than locking last year. its definitely my fav choreo for DP. and the more i look at the seniors' choreo, the more CMI i think mine is. but aiyah its a learning process. and i guess its the tendency for dancers to not like their own choreo?

and the more i'm exposed to dance, the more i feel that i have so much to learn. i'm not groovy enough, i dun rem steps as fast as others, i may anticipate steps, i look too small, not enough energy, no control of energy etc etc. me and qian were talking about how can we really reach that ~stage~. and sadly, i dun think i be able to reach anywhere near it coz i may be graduating soon if i still cannot pull up my CAP. =(

haha sorry to bore everyone with yet another dance post, if u are still reading till here. maybe coz i'm not ready to stop dancing by the end of the year. i really should have the same mindset towards studying in this case. so i can study some more, dance some more, and let the market stablise before starting work officially.

2009-01-26T02:02:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY!

i much prefer CNY to the normal New Year. But there dun seem to be any CNY spirit this year. i guessed coz it came much too early this time. and i have not been to Chinatown at all this year! although friends told me that its boring there as all the shops seem to sell the same things, so i think i did not missed out on much.

met up with the tkd friends again yesterday for a night of steamboat and chit-chat. i was reallly reluctant to have steamboat again at first coz i had one last week with the hostelites at Fortune restaurant. we went to the popular steamboat place at Bugis, the one beside the Topster Ktv. and it was really quite good! i wasn't expecting the food there to be any nice coz it seems dubious, but the ingredients are almost as fresh and clean as the one at Crystal Jade's. and we were really stuffed by the end.

so we walked over to Mr Bean's Cafe, overpriced food and drinks in my opinion, and sat there talking till around 3 plus am. this will probably be the last time we are seeing each other again for a year or so though haha. i may even be working the next time we meet. =X

even though i have make a nice group of friends during my tkd days, i can't help but regret having it as my CCA in poly everytime we meet up. to put it harshly, all i can see now is that it was a waste of my time, when i went through lots of emotional up downs and also suffered alot of injuries. and of coz, not starting dance earlier.

regarding dancewise, i seemed to get lazier about choreo-ing now. perhaps its the CNY period. which is reallly bad coz i need to teach new steps this wed i think! haha. yups should use the break to sort out all my dance and studies stuff. could not afford to really relax this time =/

2009-01-23T02:38:00.003+08:00

just had Sheares chicken for supper. yummy yummy chicken! i should take a photo of it one time. its really really good. with lots of cheese and fries and garnishes. one of the good things about hall life =)

it was quite a good day...my first class yesterday was not bad i think. and it improved my mood alot. my dancers were all on time and attentive. such a big difference compared to teaching the seniors during family hour haha. yea they could not really catch the steps, no groove etc, but sometimes i think i rather take attitude over skills. and i'm sure they will improve over time. and people actually think its fun and the choreo's nice. which is a plus point again. =D now i just got to get everything out asap so tat i can conc on studies soon...

and i'm happy, coz a good weekend lies ahead! will be going home after class, and we will head down to the restaurant to have our reunion dinner with my relatives. my reunion dinner is THE meal of the year. coz my grandma dotes on us and will order allll of our fav foods. and its been ages since i last saw my relatives too =X

2009-01-21T19:57:00.002+08:00

i really should have ask for others' opinions earlier. And i'm so grateful that my friends are all willing to help out and give suggestions to my choice of music. =) it really makes me feel less alone in this. and i also realised that catchy music to my ears does not necessarily mean that it would make a good dance performance. So after numerous feedback, i decided to scrap a song that i had always wanted to do. perhaps i can do it in a sharing session instead of a perf next time.

emcc vetting just now was ok...its not as wow as i thought it would be coz everyone are not prepared yet. i'm sure things will get better, like what pat said. but some parts of others' dances really wow me too. i really am too uncreative to come up with steps despite youtubing so much lol.

my first class in 2 hrs time...things are looking bleaked coz yet another dancer pulled out of DP. so i'm left with like 11 dancers for a hip-hop item. sigh. can't help but feel demoralised again. not sure if i can do interesting formations with such a small number. and i'm so not ready for it coz i simply can't rem my steps -___-" shall see how it goes later...

2009-01-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

1 more week of "holidays"! and i'm really dreading what will happen right after CNY. the avalanche of assignments and dance pracs. sigh.

i read in a magazine today that sometimes when you are stressed, you will experience backaches and muscle pains not related to exercising. i have muscle aches recently, and i'm quite sure that has nothing to do with dance since i barely moved much. which means that i'm stressed, subconsciously maybe. over what right??? think its coz of my stupid item. up till now 3 dancers have pulled out, and even though i know this is sort of to be expected from a hall dance, and that i'm not that good till everyone wants to join my item, i still feel kinda sad and start thinking negative thoughts. and then if i have negative thoughts, i will feel that i suck and my choreo suck and the world will suck, and everything will just keep snowballing.

so....i decided to try my best to heck everything. screw it if more ppl pull out. i'm not interested in choreo-ing anyway, and having little dancers who are interested to dance is better than having more dancers who are good and dun want to dance. i'm always pro-attitude, not skills. so i shall try my best to remain positive, and just do my best, for myself, for DP, and for those who are willing to stay on to give this noob choreo a chance =D must really try not to stress myself up!

that aside, i'm sort of looking forward to this week. more dance pracs, vetting, gatherings, reunion dinner. and i just bought the nicest dress for the first day of CNY when i went shopping at square 2 with val yesterday. i just dyed my hair at a really cheap price today, and my very pretty contact lenses will be arriving soon. so i be looking really pretty during CNY!! muahahaha. oh well. at least there are reasons to be happy afterall. =)

2009-01-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

i love this kind of life. there's sch, but not much of it. there's dance, but not much of it. no stress, able to have ample sleep, yet able to be in hall and talk to everyone, with no worries of unfinished assignments or projs.

having plans to club, sheares and steamboat with the hall peeps in this week alone. i will make sure to enjoy everything to the fullest before starting DP pracs next week. and then the busy busy times will come very very soon.

talking about dance....sigh. i really dun like the way DP is going this year. the cast list was released, and the items are all really separated. there's an invisible line between seniors and juniors as always. and this time its even more obvious. the thing is, apparently us year twos are still considered as juniors to them. i guessed that will never change. the cast list just seemed too obvious. and i really want to do more items this year, but i'm at a loss at what to join. certain choreos look good, but its too exclusive. while others are all plainly junior items. maybe its a cue to stop doing TH dance even if i'm staying next year.

that aside, all u friends should still come watch ok? hehe. i'm choreo-ing an item! that means twice the effort in this DP. you know who you are. haha. must support me k. even though i'm not a good choreo. haha.

sigh...things change

2009-01-12T00:19:00.001+08:00

grumpy grumpy

IHG fever is sky high in hall and i dun feel a single thing. so out of place. and i have 2 back-to-back lectures on the first day. monday bluuuuues.

2009-01-11T01:26:00.002+08:00

ponyo ponyo on the cliff by the sea!

It was an unexpected outing with the cathay friends on fri night. went hall to check in and spring cleaned, and initially i had plans to go out with the hall friends for ashton's, wine connection and Dbl O. but den the boys changed Dbl O to Red Cliff and i'm not going to spend $10 on that kind of show. and i could not finish cleaning in time too. was feeling quite miffed about that at first, coz i do not want to spend the night alone in hall.

but alvin called at the next second and suggested an outing, so the usual four met at cathay, went over to the prata house where i had good briyani, and after a few hours of enjoyable chatting later, to GV to watch Ponyo! i did not really expect to watch that coz it just seems unlikely that anyone i know will want to watch it. haha.

and it was a really delightful movie. its about this human fish Ponyo, who is adorable. but i prefer Sousuke, the human boy who found her, even more. coz he's super super cute! i did not really get the movie at some parts actually, but it was still a very refreshing change. even 2D animations can be so nice. and i love animations movie even more now!

and so, friday night was a good time for me, even though i initially thought i will be stuck in hall on my last holiday weekend. it was nice meeting them, and i really hope that once the sem starts and all the crazy dance and sch stuff starts coming in, we will still find time to meet up =)

and talking about dance, i can't wait to get EMCC over and done with. zzzz. the item is kinda weird. and the costumes are a big headache. Halloween costume party, and it must be black and orange. i dun even know what to dress up as during the Zouk Halloween party la. but my item ppl are all quite nice and friendly, so that's a bonus.

and its the end of the hols. sigh. i will miss home and the many days of slacking...

2009-01-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

just one more week left to the end of holidays. and the hall stuff are coming in. and i realised i have no patience for anything hall-wise. i dun want to attend meetings, nor go for IHG duties. i guessed dance is a different case, but i can't help feeling that Blast is the place to improve. i think TH has become a place of convenience, once more.

looking at all the other pics and seeing how the whole hall are now busy with the IHG, i will probably feel weird in sem 2 coz i'm defnitely not a sports person, player or even spectator. shall be a total phantom and immense in my dance-and-studies world. at least i dun feel the need to fit in with all the sports craze this year anymore =)

2009-01-04T23:51:00.007+08:00

have not been updating for awhile. been busy with everything during the last few days of 2008 and the first few ones of 2009 =)

and even though there are many many chances for me to use my camera, i ended up not taking any pics at all. =X most of the time i'm just too lazy to take out my camera coz there be someone else taking pics instead. haha. must really try to put my cam to good use though.

so the past week was spent with lots of people. had my new year countdown at where-else-but-Dbl-O. it was not as nice as the xmas countdown, even though the crowd seem really excited about counting down, with strangers grabbing and your hands and wishing everyone a happy new year. maybe coz i'm all too pessismistic about 2009, so i can't exactly feel the excitement lol. music's ok, drink's good, but that night was enough to put me off clubbing for a long long time. it was especially torturous at the end when there were no cabs in sight, and the NRs all did not stopped as they were packed. we were so tired =( so we played cards while waiting for the first bus at 6am. zzzz

the first day of the new year was spent with my pri sch class, celebrating our 10 years anniversary. 10 long years! the turnout was pretty good again, and it was nice talking to everyone. no one seem to change much as we only met last year, but everyone were much less cheena now. haha. uni does that to you.

and the next day was tkd gathering! quite a last min one though haha. had dinner at Shokudo, and i was severely late again but for a good reason this time (i clean forgot that i had to bid for mods). then went over to Top One to sing. its been ages since i last went to ktv la. i enjoyed myself quite alot. ended at 5.30am, and we had Macs breakfast before i head back to hall for dance.

and my dance is at effing 9am la. so guessed how long i slept? none at all. its crazy haha. had my first EMCC dance prac. the dance is....weird i guess. but its well-expected coz of the choreo. erps. haha. the seniors seem ok enough though. not as sticky to each other. its amazing that i managed to remb all the steps even when i'm so sleepy. but i have been through worst before haha.

and after dance prac, no, i did not went home to sleep. instead, went out to town with clarice coz i promised to lunch with her. and it was only halfway during our lunch when i realised that in my sleep-deprived state, i actually left my hp back in hall. -____- i was horrified that i may need to go all the way back to get it. but i was lucky that day, and mel was in hall and was also coming home at night. so i got her to bring it back to me. urgh shall not be so careless again =X

and now, DP is giving me a headache. yea so we are still having a DP. one with severe time shortage haha. and kuan's sms gave me no choice to choose. and des will practically kill me. not that i'm good or what but coz there's like no one else. stress leh. i really dunno what to choreo urgh. =(

2008-12-31T02:31:00.002+08:00

got my camera today! so finally, i own one. bought the Lumix FS3, which was released quite some time ago, thus i managed to get it at quite a cheap rate. thanks to ah zhao and xy for accompanying me the noob to Funan!

we walked around asking for the best rate, and encountered dubious/fierce/unfriendly promoters before finally settling on the initial shop we approached. coz the sales person there was really friendly and doesn't sound like he was cheating us =) and he even threw in lots of goodies too! besides the standard 8gb memory card and a leather case, he gave me a cleaning kit, a mini tripod and a screen protector. and i bought an extra batt at a much cheaper rate too. so i think that i got pretty much of a bargain today. yayness! ((((((=

had our dinner at Popeyes, and ah zhao got really bored with me coz i'm too busy playing with her DS. haha. perhaps i should request for a DS for my next bday. sat there till near 11 before going off.

and that's probably the last time i be seeing them vultures, till the next sem break. and its not even the full clique. am i the only one who is not looking forward to 2009? it just seems like a bad year. my CAP, the possibility of graduating at the end of the year, hall friends leaving, and lvl 3000 mods from the next sem onwards. and who knows how far apart will friends drift again in the new year?

***
just looked at the EMCC list. and i really would like to join other items, if not more. haha. i have no junior friends in my item...not even anyone i knew from camp. looking at the list, i noticed friends from camp who were in the same item as each other. and it kind of makes me reluctant to go for practices. what's more at 9am every sat. sigh. hope it all turns out well. at least the songs are intriguing. nightmare before christmas, nasty girl and thriller? i'm expecting alot of gimmicks.

2008-12-30T03:17:00.002+08:00

just got this mail from a friend. MUST READ! it had a really UNEXPECTED ending. lol

Must read! This might happen to you one fine day...........................................................

To those pple who always work late...read the story no matter u like or dun like ghost story...makes you glued to your chair till the last sentence!

Prior to joining a new company, this guy A was working at boat quay area. In those tall building offices like UOB and such. His office was quite high up the level at least 30 and above. Normally he will have to stay back for OT and in the evening, all the lifts will be stopped due to security reasons. Whenever he wanted to leave, he will need to call the old security uncle to activate the lift from ground floor to his level. Then the uncle will send the lift up..

After sometime, he left the company and joined another place where his office also very high up in the building. Hence if do OT, also need tocall uncle to send lift up.

Then it came the day that he's working OT for the first time at the new place. He stayed back till 12 plus am andwhen he's about to leave, he called the security uncle to send the liftup. After packing up he went to the lobby to wait for the lift.He waited and waited.

10 mins passed, lift not up. He waited for another 10 mins and call the security uncle. S denotes security here.

A: Hello Uncle ah, have you send the lift up?
S: Yeah sent liao.
A: No leh I been waiting for 20 mins liao leh
S: No meh? okie okie I send again.

Another 5 minutes went by. No lift came up. The guy got worried. He's the last person to leave and there's no one around. He called the uncleon his handphone again.

A: Er... Uncle ah, you sure you sent the lift up?
S: Yeah I sent it up twice liao leh.
A: But I saw the lifts all on the first floor leh!
S: Aiyoh. Nevermind. I take the lift up and look for you.

Again, A waited. 5 minutes passed but none of the lift are moving. Then suddenly, his hp ring. The uncle voice was on the other side of the line, sounding very weird.

S: Where are you? ! I am here. But I cannot find you.

All this while A was staring at the display of the lifts. All at level1..... and the uncle is here.... shit something is not right. A straight away chiong to the stairs and dashed down the building...

When he reached ground level, he chiong to the security counter and he found out that.........

............

.....................

.......................

He had actually called the old security uncle in the building of his ex-company and not the security uncle of his new office -_- He work till siao liao and was damn blur. Feeling very pai seh, he also never call back to explain to the security uncle from the building of his ex-company.

Poor uncle. He must be the one who actually freaked out going all the way up and saw no one there...hahaha

Moral of the story - dun work till become like sotong.... :P

2008-12-30T02:38:00.003+08:00

went SW by myself today. i dunno what makes me do it. i'm feeling pretty comfortable just lazing around at home, yet i made myself get dressed in my dance clothes and heading down to SW. it felt kind of weird going there alone, after having my friends around me for dance for so long.

its not bad. went for J/K pop and girls hip hop. got quite a suprise coz kevin was the one conducting the first class haha. bryan was apparently away on some photoshoot (awww....) so the choreo's ok. usual kevin-lots-of-footwork style. girls hip hop was tougher, but still ok. and and and i really think i did improve a teeny weeny bit thanks to blast camp. =)

and that's about what sums up my day. life's been going at a slow pace lately. been having more alone time these few days. in sort of a limbo. maybe i'm just confusing myself.

2008-12-29T01:49:00.005+08:00

night out with the hostelites yesterday =)

had a fab dinner at MOF. love the food there, even though i dun seem to get the chance to eat it very often. the desserts were really good. the standards did not drop the last time i visited.

it was only the six of us, but it felt good still coz i have not been seeing them ever since exams ended. was extremely stuffed by the time we were done, and walked around Marina Sq before heading over to the roof top atEsplanade. and we were just standing around when pea, shu and chris suprised me and rach with 2 slices of cake haha. for our belated bdays. really sweet of them to do so (((= sat around talking just like we were back in hall, and went off near 11. glad to have the post-New Year party at chris' house coming up soon! we really have to get together once again before sem 2 starts.

come to think of it, i really did sort of have my wish granted to having mini celebrations with different groups of friends, for my 21st bday. just felt a tad sad that my poly classmates were not around to celebrate with me, given everyone's different schedules. and once again, i'm reminded that i still had not met up with everyone on my must-meet list for the hols. and the hols are sadly coming to an end in just, 2 weeks time? should really make full use of the remaining time left...

and i'm tinking of going over to SW tmr. none of the usual dance kakis can make it though. perhaps i should give dance a rest till the new sem. seriously, i'm not optismistic at all about DP this year. there's no talk about it since the start of hols, and its obvious time will be extremely tight towards the end. haha. what a difference a year makes. should just try my best to focus on EMCC in feb.

2008-12-28T02:26:00.006+08:00

the merry christmas

i just found out that i have EMCC dance prac tmr. at 9am. impossible. i'm not going. and is this the first time i skipped a Blast! prac? i think so. first and last i hope =/

anyway, how's everyone's christmas? the eve started off quite badly for me. i met up with val in the day and we went CCK to shop at the Sasa there, coz there's a sale going on. and we went over to Fortune, that buffet place at Sunset Way which i like alot, for a very late lunch. and the very late lunch turned out to be dinner coz that place opens only at 5pm! and we were there since 3 30. nth much to eat there, so we decided to wait.

and i was already quite pissed by that time coz yc suddenly do not want to watch Bedtime Stories at night, and i already bought the tix. so its one long story, but at least it all got sorted out in the end when i sold off the tix to her bro. the food was good though, and val treated me as its my bday meal. it was pouring by the time we were done, so we have to take a bus to bukit batok in order not to get drenched.

den i went off to clark quay coz i decided to club with yc and friends. was really hesistant about it coz my day was not going too well and i just want to go home and rest. i dunno how i let them convince me. haha. so yada yada i ended up at dbl o. rach came to join us too. and her frens.

so what was initially a small grp became quite a big grp. so it all became quite fun, unexpectedly haha. had my first xmas countdown at a club, and the atmosphere was pretty good. the music was sucky techno-like at first, and became really really good later on. so it was a really fun and enjoyable night, and i'm glad that at least everything turned out nice for christmas =))

so after all the fuss about Bedtime Stories, yc and me managed to catch it today! and i realised it was so convenient to watch it at j8. i can just wear my fbt and walked back after the movie. and i really like the show! the children are effing cute and there are hilarious parts. its like 10 times better than Twilight, sorry to say. =P

2008-12-27T03:00:00.002+08:00

i just found out that i have EMCC dance prac tmr. at 9am. impossible. i'm not going. and is this the first time i skipped a Blast! prac? i think so. first and last i hope =/

anyway, how's everyone's christmas? the eve started off quite badly for me. i met up with val in the day and we went CCK to shop at the Sasa there, coz there's a sale going on. and we went over to Fortune, that buffet place at Sunset Way which i like alot, for a very late lunch. and the very late lunch turned out to be dinner coz that place opens only at 5pm! and we were there since 3 30. nth much to eat there, so we decided to wait.

and i was already quite pissed by that time coz yc suddenly do not want to watch Bedtime Stories at night, and i already bought the tix. so its one long story, but at least it all got sorted out in the end when i sold off the tix to her bro.

the food was good though, and val treated me as its my bday meal. it was pouring by the time we were done, so we have to take a bus to bukit batok in order not to get drenched. den i went off to clark quay coz i decided to club with yc and friends. was really hesistant about it coz my day was not going too well and i just want to go home and rest. i dunno how i let them convince me. haha.

so yada yada i ended up at dbl o. rach came to join us too. and her frens. so what was initially a small grp became quite a big grp. so it all became quite fun, unexpectedly haha. had my first xmas countdown at a club, and the atmosphere was pretty good. the music was sucky techno-like at first, and became really really good later on. so it was a really fun and enjoyable night, and i'm glad that at least everything turned out nice for christmas =))

so after all the fuss about Bedtime Stories, yc and me managed to catch it today! and i realised it was so convenient to watch it at j8. i can just wear my fbt and walked back after the movie. and i really like the show! the children are effing cute and there are hilarious parts. its like 10 times better than Twilight, sorry to say.

and i realised there is a lack of Christmas movies this year. really miss watching something like Elf during this holiday season.

2008-12-24T01:57:00.002+08:00

i did worst in the mod i like the best. my Intercultural Comm, the one which i have hardworking proj mates, the presentation which we all got praised for, the one that i did not bad for my reflections. so what happened??!! )))=

enough of disheartening stuff. ~shiffs~ shall blog about my 21st bday.

er...it was just like any normal bday of mine i guessed. went out with parents in the day for a really good meal. nth ex but i ate ALOT. was so full and bloated. i think i have regained all the weight i lost during dance camp.

then i was off to sentosa in the evening to meet up with the other bday (realllyyy belated) girl xy (and mel, who went MIA again). and we set off for Siloso beach with instructions from the others. its abit weird to go Sentosa when everyone is heading back home hahaha. and there were quite alot of tourists there. from all those countries like Vietnam and China of coz. Sentosa has gotten so boring that no caucasians will go there.

so we reached beach station, and ah zhao and zlink made us close our eyes and lead us to this place (Coastes, some chill out place by the beach). i smelled the sparkers before i opened my eyes haha. den they broke into bday song with all the presents and cake placed nicely on the table, and the sparkers sparkling prettily all around. haha. very cute.

and it was a night of chilling out by the beach, eating cake and the delicious food at Coastes. we sat till near closing time, and went off to Vivo for Starbucks and another vultures chit-chatting session. left the place around 11 plus for home. =)

just want to say a big THANK YOU to everyone who bothered to wish me via sms, fb or calls, contributed money for my presents, gave me presents, and also spending the day with me. my 21st may not be extravagant, but i'm happy =)

shall post the pics once i get them!

***

and today, met up with yc for lunch at J8, and went over to Cathay to eat at Aston's with ching. been quite some time since i last met her! and the food at Aston's is good and chip chip chip!! the queue was really long too, though we went there early and did not wait too long. i would really love to go back again if not for the long waiting time.

den cheryl joined us and its TWILIGHT TIME!!!! hahaha i can't believe i'm actually watching it. coz i have heard about the movie way before it came out in the States and i have been reading so much about it, youtubing all the red carpet vids, saw many gifs and official movie pictures. but i have not really come to watching it.

and as i already have low expectations of the movie, i wasn't entirely too disappointed with it. but the starting is really BORING. i started to notice minor details like how pretty Bella was, how chui the make up was, how their acting is really quite bleh. and the music just doesn't flow with the scenes. and the whole sparkle in the sun thing makes me want to laugh! Edward looked like he's sweating more than sparkling. but things start picking up once they reached the meadow thing where she found out he's a vampire blah blah.

and i love love love the baseball scene. there are parts which are quite good too. like how the director expanded on Bella researching about the vampires, with all the graphics. and the jokes are quite funny too. and of coz, there are tons of eye candy in this film. i realised that Jasper looks good too. and Rpattz is perfect for Edward minus the tacky acting and thick foundation. the action scenes at the end are not bad too. and i think many people mistook the girl at the end as Rosalie and not Victoria. i will have mistook it too if i had not read about it haha.

so...the moviw is really for Twilight fans i guess. i dun see why non-readers can actually understand the film honestly. but its quite ok i guess. though i'm looking forward to New Moon as it should be better with a bigger budget and a change in director.

weee long boring post! no pics only words. i dun like it too. wait till i get my camera! haha. and merry christmas in advance to all, as i wun be around to blog tmr =))))

2008-12-22T04:09:00.003+08:00

hey everyone =D

its the 22nd of Dec, and i have just turned 21. well, not really technically coz my time of birth is at 5+ in the evening later in the day.

so tell me, why am i feeling so normal and not hyped up about this day?!

maybe coz i have accepted that my 21st will basically be the same as my 19th, 20th etc. i know that i have told many friends that no, i won't be having any party coz its just oh-so-troublesome and i'm too lazy to be bothered about booking chalets/ function rooms and ordering food etc. and of coz, i dun like to spend my day entertaining friends whom obviously wun know each other.

but then again, as the day arrives, i find myself regretting slightly that i did not do any of this. even though its troublesome and i probably would be tired from talking the entire time, it would be a day to remember. coz all of my friends will be there for me, and it would actually feel like a 21st bday, and not some normal bday, even though age 21 is just something technically symbolic.

but then again, i guess i am content with how things are turning out. there are people who bother to organise things for me, that i'm not left on my own for my bday, and i have been receving early bday presents from some. even though most are not much of a suprise coz when you are 21, its better for friends to get you something practical. haha.

all in all, i wish myself a happy birthday, even though it may not be a smashing, extremely memorable one surrounded by lots of friends. so i wun have the typical 21st, but well, i must be content with my lot. and i will remember this day as well too. =)))

and anyone wants to spend xmas eve with me? i'm supposed to have a class gathering on that day and they just postponed the date coz more ppl are free to meet on New Year. =( why is it that my xmas eve plans always dun go as planned??

2008-12-20T01:46:00.002+08:00

went for 飞轮海 aka Fahrenheit's concert at the indoor stadium just now! before you all mistook me of still being a teen screaming fan girl going gaga over Taiwanese boy bands, i only paid $10 for the ticket and went for the fun of it. well the concert's pretty ok. i have only listened to like 2-3 songs from them before, so i can't say i enjoy it thoroughly. but the boys are quite funny and they sounded really sincere, so it was still quite fun throughout.

i was really tired by the time i got there though. we waited ages for the bus 16 at PS to come and each bus was packed full. then this v cute bus driver uncle kept asking the passengers to move back and make space for the hordes of teenage girls wanting to board the bus, coz the concert is starting at 8pm. haha.

and even though the boys are really...ummm not that talented, they more than make it up for by their sincerity. can tell they tried really hard too, and the crowd of mostly girls lapped it up fervently. their looks doesn't hurt too, and by the end of the concert when they came back for an encore, my friends and i were all clapping along and waving to them.

tmr will be specially for the cathay peeps. been quite some time since we met up! and i had not met up with so many others too, like val, yc, amber...etc. urgh its all my fault i know. busy schedule. but i will definitely try to make more time for meet ups!

2008-12-19T04:02:00.005+08:00

Blast! camp was really good! =D shall post more pics when the rest uploaded them.

went in with mixed feelings at first. i was really tired after hall dance camp, and the next day we had to be there at like 9am in the morning. it didn't helped that during the night before my friend suddenly decided not to join the camp, with some weird emo reasons. so it was technically only me and des, not counting the seniors. which was really sad la. i thought i be all alone again.

but of coz, you can't help but bond with others during camps. and once again i learnt that depending on others will get you nowhere. so i went into the camp "alone" but coz i was not bounded by any circle of friends, i managed to know more people when i ventured out of my comfort zone. even though the turnout for the camp was not as good as expected. each group only have like, 3-4 juniors? quite sad considering the number of the comm. but well, its their loss of course. and yea, although my group did faced quite a few setbacks (since when have i ever been lucky to be in the best group haha), we did bond well, and i get to know their friends better too.

and it was a really really tiring camp. but i love it. i enjoyed every single one of the master classes, even though i often felt sad when i can't catch the steps haha. its amazing there's such a big gap between the seniors and us la. definitely a fresh change from hall dance. i can really feel myself, and the others, pushing ourselves to our limits. and i'm sure we all improved even more after this. and again, i realised how important attitude is in everything you do. we may not be as good yet, but i'm sure hard work pays off... =)

anyways, i really enjoyed the camp much better than i expected to. i dunno how things will change from now. but this camp really make me realise quite a few things. and i guessed its all up to me to handle them. but then again, i would not be alone if my other friends decide not to come to class anymore. =D

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and i'm finally done with Breaking Dawn! its really quite a refreshing change. i understand what cheryl meant when she said it reminds her of Heroes. but i like the ending. i dun see why some readers are not happy with it.

and on another random note, FASS results were leaked before the actual date. not many know about it though, but i was lucky to know about it just before they took it off. i did improved as i had expected, but not as much as i hoped to. i wonder if i really had only a year more before graduating....that thought is unsettling. whether i can improve or not depends on next sem's mods again.

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and i be turning 21 in a few days time! i almost forgot about it la. i dunno y i can't seem to regard my 21st bday more importantly. =/

2008-12-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

i'm glad i went for TH Dance camp. even though today's attendance was worse than yesterday, that it seems more like workshops rather than a camp, and that i was so effing shagged by the end of it.

coz i think i have improve even more after this. hard work really pays off. being bombarded by so many choreos within such a short time and thus improving the muscle memory. so i'm very sure that even though the camp is not much of a fun factor bonding-wise, everyone has improved so much more, and those who never came really did lose out on alot. too bad life sucks =)

sort of looking forward to Blast! camp though. not for the games definitely. shudders. and there are only like 7 classes? quite little for a 4 day camp lo. but well...hopefully it be not bad. and there's even a dance battle thingy at the end of it. so we have like 3 nights to put up an item. haha. go figure.

2008-12-13T22:43:00.003+08:00

its the first day of dance camp and i'm so tiredddd. mainly coz i only slept around 3 hours last night coz i was reading Breaking Dawn. LOL. yea i know i'm taking a long time to read it.

anyway, attended 3 workshops today. New School by kevin, Lyrical hip hop by yayi and Contempt Jazz by Chun. and i have to say that Chun is just so effing zai! its my first contempt class and i really think i totally CMI. haha. my lines are all wrong, and i can't do simple rolls and turns. should just stick to plain hip hop.

sadly to say, the attendance is not very desirable. hopefully there be more people coming tmr. but well, i guess i'm looking forward more to blast! camp. the camp now is just...poorly planned. shrugs. but i'm happy that they are making away with the games though coz there's no point playing them if there's so little people haha.

5 workshops tmr and its my own class first thing in the morning. got to rest early tonight.